Finding myself

Since my last post, a lot has happened and not a lot has happened. I have been organizing and trying to get this apartment to my liking. I am settling down somewhat nicely. I keep forgetting how much I have accumulated over the last couple of years. I am attempting to get rid of as much as I can, and part with some things that I have put a lot of sentimentality on. It’s hard, but will totally be worth it.

I have also realized how much crafting supplies I have. And I remember when I got them and what I was planning on doing with them. I am in a small space and trying to make a small space into very home like and less cluttered. But it is very hard for me and my non-organized type of brain. I have moments of good cleaning which I surprisingly like to do, but getting a place organized, is hard. I have made progress with cleaning out closets and having a bit of a plan on what I would like to do with this place, but it is not a full fledged plan of action yet.

It is also hard during Covid because I have family who can help and are much better at all this kind of stuff, but I can’t have them over yet. But eventually, I know I will be. And I will be able to get help and to have my family help me. Just not quite yet.

Going through all my craft supplies and things that I have has been eye opening. I am trying not to buy any more supplies until I use up more of what I have. I will be hopefully soon be making more wine glasses as well. I have so much vinyl that I would like to use. I just don't know what I want to make with the vinyl and glasses yet. It's hard! I love using my Cricut, but sometimes I get a creative block. And it's hard to get out of the rut.

I have been busy as well getting my son into daycare. Which is super awesome and helpful. He started last week and actually loves it. He is one social butterfly. Which is what makes me so happy. I was afraid that with not seeing anyone other than family, he would not open up and be difficult. But the daycare workers said he was great. Only cried a little bit when I had left, but cheered up pretty quick and played with everyone. It really is a blessing that he can go. So I can work more and work on my writing and look for decent apartments in the area.

I am working on making more and learning more about the crafts that I want to get better at. Candle making, soap making and home décor with yarn. I’m trying to get specific with the yarn work. I am constantly trying to learn more and broaden my skills with what I can make with yarn. I have so much I know I can and will learn. I am always looking for inspiration on what I can make and what I can do. It always makes me feel so good looking at what other creators can do and are doing. And I try to build them up when I can. By commenting, sharing or even saying something to them.

I also don’t want to put too much on my plate at the moment. I love creating and making, but I have already so much I’m needing to do. But since Baby Bear is in daycare now, I have time to get all my ducks in a row. I have time now to write more, make candles and hone in on what I want to improve on. Which is a breath of fresh air. I am creating and getting better every day and my son gets to socialize and make friends and learn a lot. I am one proud mama. I am making sure that I am still putting in tons of effort in keeping up routine. I am hoping to keep it up and keep my son always learning and growing. I have so many hopes and dreams for my boy. I have been doing a lot of reading and research to help make homelife the best. And to make my sons learning, the best.

I would call myself a hippie, down to earth mama bear. I would love to part some hippie wisdom onto my son, and also keep him interested in anything he would like to be into. He loves so much and we both have a lot of interests in common. But I’m wanting to help make the world a better place for my son and to teach him to take care of the earth and those around him. My son loves to be outside. We walk everywhere. Mainly because I don’t have a car at the moment, but also because he loves being outside. And so do I. I love his little curiosity for everything and all life around him.

Baby Bear loves to help me with candle making as well. Looking at the changing colours, the wax melting and then pouring into the jars. He is helping me more than he could ever know. Since I am so crafty, he is becoming so crafty and creative as well. We paint together, do candles together and I’m trying to find other things to do with him that is on the cheaper end of things only because I don’t have the finances to do so. But I have lots to do with him. Just need to get it all organized and set up.

I hope you all have enjoyed my story today. And I will be writing more.