Fearlessly Brilliant

The day was like all the others. Blurring together from lack of sleep, endlessly trying to fulfill all the responsibilities that I had agreed to and feeling like a failure in every department. Have you ever been there? Circling the drain of endless "tasks" and when you glance in the mirror all you see is a dimmed version of the you that you once thought was possible. Upon starting the journey, you're a wide eyed dreamer full of ideas and stars in your head. Yet, as the days wear on and seem to pound you like relentless waves on a stormy beach you begin to lose sight of the stars and all you feel is the water filling your lungs.

I awoke in the middle of what felt like drowning. Nothing in my existence brought me joy anymore, even my six month old son. Sleep deprived and living in a loveless marriage I felt isolated, cold, and empty.

Why do we do that to ourselves? I'm not sure I'll ever truly know. This day though, a bright beacon glowed for me and my journey into Creation truly began. I saw a course called "Unfake Your Life" and it was a small mini course that cost me $35. I had gotten so far removed from my self worth that even asking to invest that much in myself felt as if it were a huge feat. Feeling nauseous and overwhelmed I purchased the course and began immediately rolling change around the house so that I could replace the money that I had used in the bank account.

The title of the course had caught my eye and was run by two women that seemed to have everything I felt like I lacked. They had wonderful life partners, traveled, had beautiful pets and children, worked on their own terms and schedules, ate delicious clean foods, used herbal remedies. Every bit of the bohemian queen vibe that I, standing in my three days old t-shirt and pajama pants, could only dream of.

Eagerly awaiting the course, I was let into the Facebook group and asked to introduce myself. I wish now that I had saved that post. I cannot remember what It said but I know that I had promised myself that I would show up without fear. The only way to change my life was to stop faking it, to stop faking everything that I was trying so hard to keep together. I did, and showing up in that group I admitted to all of my darkest secrets. I purged everything that I had been holding onto and allowed myself to truly be seen for the first time.

It was wonderfully well received. Even before the course began I was having other women in the group interact with me and tell me they were proud of me. We shared stories back and forth of ways that they were also similar and for once in my life I felt as if I weren't completely alone. The course its self was on Manifestation. If you're not sure of what that means, it actually isn't as "out there" as it might seem. Manifestation is basically seeing the vision of your best life, writing it all down and being able to daydream on it, and then taking inspired action toward that life. The issue comes in when we are told by others, or even ourselves, that we aren't capable.

"Why do you deserve such a fancy life?"

"How could you be so special to have that perfect partner"

"Being rich isn't for you, you weren't born into money"

I'm sure you've had those kinds of thoughts, just as I have. Commonly they are called limiting beliefs. Usually they stem from childhood and the stories that the adults in our lives taught us. Some of those stories might be true for you, but for me, may of the stories I was handed as a child are not in alignment with who I am as an adult.

The course lit me up from the inside out. I visualized a life full of travel and adventure, possibly in a tiny home. One that wasn't tied down too heavily by "things" and where my time and money was spent on creating experiences rather than collecting items. I envisioned a loving partner that wanted to experience that type of moving and expansive life alongside me.

The water from my lungs was seeming to clear and I could breathe again. With each passing day I was starting to see the stars again, even during the day I was experiencing the magic of an inspired existence. Through the connection of this course I felt compelled to continue on the line of vulnerability and shared myself with the world. I started my own network marketing business as a result. I had a head full of dreams and was also handed the vehicle that would help me get to where I ultimately want to go.

What lights me up, you ask? What Ignites my soul with passions so deep I seem to burn from the inside out?

Luminosity. Leading a Fearlessly Brilliant Life. Thats what fulfills me.

Leaning into what Luminosity meant for me was saying no to each and every person, place, thing, habit and idea that was keeping me stuck and limited. Its been quite the purge process because once you see your worth you just cant sit at the table across from people who don't see it. I love that I chose a fearlessly brilliant life! I not only am learning these lessons day by day but I am an open book and I share them with anyone who wants to learn and grow as well.

There are many ways to join in with me on a path to a Fearlessly Brilliant life. So if you're looking for someone to lovingly call you out on the things that you're doing to keep yourself small and that are holding you back, I'm your girl. You can connect with me on Facebook at Addison Dione Culp or on Instagram @eponascalling

Addison Dione Culp