A Letter To Her

I am sorry for the way I have treated you over the years.

I am sorry for thinking that you were less-than.

I am sorry for putting you in a box.

I am sorry for letting others tell you what yourself worth was/is.

I am sorry for having limiting beliefs about you.

I am sorry for telling you, you are unworthy.

I am sorry for telling you, you are disgusting.

I am sorry for telling you that you are not worthy of love from others.

I am sorry for telling you you're ugly.

I am sorry for thinking that you need to lose weight.

I am sorry for praising you for losing weight, when I know that it was not done healthily.

I am sorry for telling you, you were terrible for gaining weight, even though you were feeding your body a balanced diet and exercising regularly.

I am sorry that I told you that you aren't talented enough to pursue your career.

I am sorry for punishing you with exercise.

I am sorry for ever thinking that maybe they'd all be better off without you, even if that was 15+ years ago.

I am sorry for not nourishing you the way I should have.

I am sorry that I didn't stick up for you when others were putting you down.

I am sorry that I didn't have more of a backbone.

I am sorry that I let people abuse you.

I am sorry that I let bad things happen to you.

I am sorry that I didn't get you help sooner when you needed help with your mental health.

I am sorry that I wasn't a better advocate, and let doctors and other health care professionals gaslight you for years.

I am sorry for making you feel small.

I am sorry for letting the mess inside your brain become a state of constant anxiety and stress, when I know that writing and running could have helped.

I am sorry that I have let men treat you poorly in your relationships.

I am sorry that I let women who you thought were your friends, treat you with disdain and disrespect.

I am sorry that I have let toxic people into your life.

I am sorry that I let you get away from your truth.

I am sorry that I let others project their expectations and standards on you.

I am sorry that I didn't protect you more.

I am sorry that I let you be manipulated.

I am sorry that I let you be treated in a way that made you feel uncomfortable.

I am sorry that I made you feel like half a person.

I am sorry that I didn't know how to be kind to you always.

I am sorry that I didn't know how to show you how much you mean to me.

I am sorry that I am not better at providing for you.

I am sorry that I let you feel like a diminished version of yourself for so long.

I am sorry that I may not able to be more independent for you.

I am sorry that I may not able to be financially secure enough for you.

I am sorry that I have let you down.

I am sorry that I was not a better cheerleader for you.

I am sorry that I didn't believe in you enough.

I am sorry that I let you feel unwanted.

I am sorry that you ever had to feel like you were alone.

I am sorry that you have felt despair.

I am sorry that you have felt uncomfortable in your own skin.

I am sorry that you have had to go through some tough shit.

I am sorry that I didn't believe you.

I am sorry that I didn't trust you.

I am sorry that you have felt loss.

I am sorry that you had to hide so much.

I am sorry that you have had to struggle.

I am sorry that you have been miserable.

I am sorry that you have felt trapped.

I am sorry that you have felt scared.

I am sorry that you have been terrified.

I am sorry that I let you feel unloved by me.

I am sorry that I made you feel like you were a failure.

I am sorry that I let you think that you would fail if you tried to change.

I am sorry that I didn't tell you how much you mean to me.

I am sorry that I didn't tell you you were strong enough.

I am sorry that I didn't encourage you.

I am sorry that I didn't tell you that you can do anything you set out to do.

I am sorry that I didn't tell you that no matter what, you are worth it.

I am sorry that I didn't tell you that no matter what, you are worthy of love and respect.

I am sorry that I have to be so sorry.

I'm just sorry. But, I promise you that I can do better, and I will do better. I promise I am learning and growing. I promise I can and I will.

Love,

Your Inner Little Voice.

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