Raising Hope

I sighed staring deeply at the boy who was lying in my bed. No, we didn't have sex but he was drunk and found his way to my house. I ran my hands through his curls before I felt something churn in my stomach. I quietly got out of bed running to the bathroom with light steps going straight to the toilet emptying all the liquid that was in my stomach. Once I was done I stood up groaning going over to the sink grabbing my toothbrush to brush the puke away. I looked in the mirror making my eyes go wide. I looked at the calendar noticing today was 21st of next month while my period was always on the 20th.

"No no no." I muttered squatting opening the cabinet under the sink and searching for the pregnancy test. I paced around the room waiting seven minutes to go by; I was scared out of mind. When the timer went off I raced over to the test picking it up to show a little plus sign. I gasped as tears sprung to my eyes. I wrapped the test into toilet paper before throwing it away in the garbage can. I walked into the room to see Harry still sleeping peacefully. I slid into the bed letting the covers rest on my lower half just staring off into space.

When should I tell him? Should I tell him? 'Harry that one time we've done something ended up with you getting me pregnant. I'm having a baby and you're the father and everyone will judge us because I am black and you're white. Please don't leave me?' No that sounds so bad God why did this have to happen to me? I quickly wiped the tears away before nudging Harry awake.

"It's 5:30 you should get going." I smiled at him as he sat up groaning as he fell back down into the bed pulling the cover over him.

"I don't want to go." He whined like a childish little boy.

"School Harry." I warned.

"We can skip and do some fun stuff." He pulled the covers from off his head giving me a cheeky smile which showed his dimples. I rolled my eyes and smacked him on his arm playfully.

"Harry I told you it was a one-time thing plus school first." He rolled his eyes before standing up putting on his pants and shirt.

"I'll see you later babe." He leaned over on the bed giving me a quick kiss on the lips before grabbing his keys and going out the window walking over to his bike leaving me to close the window, such a gentleman.

I got up going over to my closet looking threw my uniforms. Once I get that baby bump I knew I wouldn't be able to fit in this little thing. I looked over in the mirror slightly pulling up my shirt looking at my stomach. There's going to be a life in there. I felt the tears come out.

"I'm going to be a mom; A good one."

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I walked down my schools hallway waiting by my friend amber's locker. Amber has beautiful long blonde hair and hazel eyes, is a little bit thick in the head, but her beauty and kindness makes up for it. I watched amber as she was walking up to me.

"Hey Monica," Amber said as she walked over to her locker with her boyfriend Zayn. I shifted in my shoes uncomfortably. Zayn and I have beef ever since he tried to hook up with me when he was dating amber, I hated him ever since and he was just mad because he couldn't have me.

"I'll see you later babe," Zayn said lightly pushing her against the lockers and kissing her deeply making me roll my eyes. He smiled as leaned out and gave her a quick peck before looking at me and glaring before walking away.

"Wheres Briana and Luke?" she asked pulling out her books for her first-period class.

Luke has shaggy blonde hair that was up some days and down the others and piercing blue eyes. He was the greatest thing that ever came into my life if he wasn't gay I would've snatched him up by now, but just because he gay doesn't mean anything he's pretty strong and has a bad attitude. He tells the truth and doesn't care if it hurts your feeling; that makes me scowl at him sometimes.

Brianna on the other hand had thick natural hair, stunning brown eyes and gorgeous tanned skin; a little lighter than me. Very sarcastic she tends to have a twisted sense of humor. She can be annoying and clingy to Luke but other than that she's cool.

"I don't know I told them to meet me by your locker." I shrugged. " I have news to tell you guys." I sighed when I saw them approach us.

"Is it good or bad news?" Luke asked raising his eyebrows.

"I don't know however you want to take it I guess," I shrugged "But let me tell you how it started" I sighed.

*Flashback to 2 months ago*

"You're going to that party tonight Monica!" Brianna huffed trying to get me to go to Zayn's party that I didn't want to go to. Why would I want to? He's a dick.

"I have to study! I can't fail this test it like 30% of my grade. Plus Zayn and I aren't slightly on the best terms right now!" I complained trying to silently tell her what happened without Amber knowing what happened.

"I don't care about that! You going and that's final. I will drag you by your greasy hair if you want me to!" She smirked at making me gasp as my hand went to my hair. I don't have greasy hair.

"You're so annoying. Don't be mad because I have better hair then you!" I laughed.

"Yeah when you're wearing a weave," she retorted making me go silent. It's true but with my real hair, it does past my shoulder.

"I don't wear weave anymore. This conversation is over!' I sighed.

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I slipped on my black flats with red on the bottom that matched my red lipstick. Slipped on my black dress that was tight and showed off my curves with a small red belt around my waist. I grabbed a coat just incase it gets cold before silently walking down the stairs trying not to make to much noise as I closed and locked the door. I jogged over to the car saying hello to everyone once I stepped in.

Once we turned down the road Zayn lived on you could practically feel the base as it shook the car. Once we pulled up to his house you could see people passed out on the lawn, people making out, and some throwing up. Luke parked the car and we all pilled out of the car, me being the slowest one of all.

"I have to go find Zayn, I want to snog his face." Amber yelled running over to the house making me laugh hard.

I could already feel the tension outside as Brianna and I approached the party. Brianna was unlike me, very confident in herself and loves her skin. While me... I let other people words get to me because I am a coward.

"I need something to drink." I muttered.

Feeling uneasy as I walked into the house, I went straight to the kitchen to get something to drink loosing my friends along the way. I went over to the punch ball filling a cup and drowning down whatever it was. It was sweet but tangy. I filled my cup again before walking over to the next room where everyone was dancing.

I walked over to the back of the room leaning against the wall sipping on my drink just watching people dancing and making out. I heard someone clear their throat making me snap my head to the side seeing if they were talking to me. I looked up to see a pair of memorizing green eyes staring back at me. I looked at the boy who had a smirk on his face silently asking what he wanted.

"You look lovely tonight," He yelled over the music. I smiled and thanked him looking down before taking more of my drink.

"We should go somewhere where it would be more quitter for us to talk" He yelled and held out his hand for me to take. To talk ? With me? Is he serious right now? I looked at him for a little before taking it letting him lead me the way up the stairs, into this room with red walls and band posters here and there.

"Sorry if my room is a mess." He started scratching the back of his neck.

"You live with Zayn?" I asked and he nodded telling me that he and four boys live here. I nodded my head sitting on the edge of his bed.

"I never got your name my name Is Monica." I stuck my hand out for him to shake which he gladly did.

"Harry." He smiled standing up going over to his mini-fridge and pulling out two beers offering one, which I gladly accepted.

"So what's the deal with you and that one boy? I think his name is Puke?" He asked as he sat down on the bed taking one big sip of his beer.

"His name is Luke." I rolled my eyes correcting him "Nothing is going on with us? And wait we go to the same school? I never see you," I laughed. He knew me already. This stalker. He shrugged his shoulders then it went silent and awkward.

"I live with Zayn and your best friends with Amber so of course I would know you, but do you have a boyfriend?" He asked straight forward.

"Nope all the guys I like don't like girls like me," I said pointing to my skin. I was a fair brown and not a lot of guys in my city were the same color and no white boys liked me since this was a city with a lot of racist people. It was frowned upon in our city to be interracial I honestly don't know why it's not like I had a disease. Regardless, I still have my friends who stood by my side .

"Well I think you're beautiful," He told me staring into my eyes making me look away and drowning the beer down my throat.

After 47 minutes of drinking like 5 beers and telling harry embarrassing things about myself the laughing stopped and it was just lite chuckling and starring in the eyes. I felt his hand hold my face ever so slightly as he leaned in and kissed me. I pulled away looking at him before kissing him again. Things got heated pretty quickly as he slipped his tongue into my mouth. I felt his hands run down my body going to the end of my dress pulling it off breaking the kiss as he threw it the floor.

I found my self under the covers naked with a naked Harry on top of me kissing me roughly.

"Do you have a condom?" I whispered but he shook his head no and continued to kiss me. "Harry stop I don't think this is a good idea" He ignored me and continued to kiss my neck. "I'm serious." I sat up pulling the covers with me.

"I promise you nothing bad will happen. Plus only like 8% chance you will get pregnant Monica come on" He traced his fingers along my dark arm.

"Promise?"

"Promise." He smiled before kissing me deeply and lying me against the pillow.

*Flashback over*

"Holy shit." Briana breathed. "You really shouldn't have gone to that party." She said looking at me stunned.

"Wait did he call me Puke?" Luke asked annoyed. "Who the fuck is Harry?" He asked making me shrug trying to hide his identity from Luke.

"Styles" Amber beamed " I see him like all the time at Zayn's he's pretty nice and cute! That baby is going to come out hot if it's a boy."

"You're supposed to be smart," Brianna told me ignoring Amber.

"I was wasted and wasn't think straight. Plus he told me things no other guy wouldn't dare say to me." I smiled to remember how he told me I was beautiful.

"To get into your pants," Luke retorted making me frown.

"Have you guys done it again after that?" Amber asked me. I shook my head telling him no.

"He tries but I say no and always change the subject. But he practically ignores me in school."

"What are you going to do? Get an abortion? Or keep it?" Luke asked. "You should get an abortion, Monica. I'm sorry but just think for yourself." He told me while the girls shook their heads like he was right.

"I'm keeping the baby, its final. I dreamed of having this day maybe a little time when I'm older but it's my junior year so what. But I'm defiantly not telling Harry about it, and I would gladly appreciate if you guys didn't" I told them as I sighed and gave them a group hug. After I was done giving them a hug I went and walked down to my locker passing Harry who was hugged up on some blonde chick.

Yeah, I'm not telling him.