In My Overthing Era

Hai, lemme tell you about my self for the firs. I'm a student of the one of big universities. And yaaaa, i'm a final year student.

Ok, maybe we don't have a problem so far, but when i have a task that i must doing my final thesis, here we go. Such as like i enter to the new world that having so many problem so many strugle when i'm being a final year student. I know when i always walk in my line, doing the best for my thesis and i thing everthing will gonna be ok with that

But if i found some people and asking me about my thesis, I'M VERY ANNOYED, i mean they are not only asking me but judging me of course, and i hate that

Bro, if you thing the fucking qustion is a joke for you, i thing you having ba down grade jokes, I'm sorry to hear that.

Not only about people around me, the big probem is 'MY SELF'. I have a ADH diagnosed. ADHD being a big strugle with me in my life, i can't control my self, my mind everytime everywhere, and because of that i'm being a overthingker.

I hate that when i spending my time alone or all people call it 'me time' that i hope i can getting the new peaces, but noooo, i just killing my self slowly through the thoughts I create and the name is ovethingking.

everyday i came to the campus for celebrate my friends getting his degree and what about me ? what about you ? when ? i just smile and giving the tirte answer "be patient, i'll being the part of you when the time is right" but when ? when the time is right ? i asked everyone to be patient but me ? have I been patient enough in waiting and dealing with it ? i don't know

When i lying in my bed evernight i getting the overthingking came back to my mind. I can crying in all night until morning just because of my fucking overthing. I so scared when i see my friend getting his degree and me ? i just cekebrate it withour getting it yet.

I'm craying because craying make me more comfort with my sleep and my life. I didn't tell anyone about my problem my overthing i just keep it by myself, i know that's not good it will only give you the risk of getting early stage depression . But i don't know how to telling my feeling to everyone i just don't know how. I know all people in this world having their problem and i didn't want anyone to be too busy with my problems. So i decide to keep it alone

ADHD that make my overthing can be more serious. for your information this not onley my personal statement but several researchers have studied the same thing, such as like : A study published in the journal Frontiers shows that individuals with ADHD are twice as likely as controls to experience injuries, which can increase stress and trigger overthinking. And i getting another information from Healthline states that intrusive thoughts, which are part of overthinking, can be experienced by some individuals with ADHD

See ? how the ADHD maakee someone being overthingking and all of that being more seriously when i'm in the final semester in my collage. Not only ADHD, not only overthingking i just scared to being crazy with this life.

But i know i'm not alone to through all this, you know i have god

i have god in every section, and it can make be more calmer that before,

And for all of you and fighthing with ADHD and overthingking i hope you always remember that you have god, maybe you can't tell to everyone with what you felling but you telling everthing to your god

KEEP SPIRIT AND DON'T GIVE UP