Take A Deep Breath and Relax

The same morning

The morning with a 1001 problem in my mind, with so many demands.

what do you think? bad morning or a normal morning ?

when all people think the morning with soooo many demand is a bad morning i think it"s just a normal day

hahahahha, yes guys, I've spent the last year or so coming to terms with those demands. At first the all of demand very disturbed me but the more often and the heavier the load the more I get used to it or maybe get used to it.

As you know i'm a final student i must finished my study in this year. I'm oke with that, that's my responsibilities right ? but, in my process i very distrubed with the all people expectation to me, It's like a chest-pounding pressure every moment of every day.

But in the day when i'm felling hate to myself cause i think i just a fault women just because i'm not look like my friends. At the time i'm crying and praying to god

It's really surprisingly when i cry and tell everthing to Allah i fell comfort and found a peace in this world.

Every day every single day i do the same thing to god. I tell god with what happen in my life , sometimes i cray with that, sometimes i just look like a little girl who whines to his mum and asks her to buy him candy canes

I don't know it will be true or false, i just do it cause i found peace with that

i do it again again and again, until I could straighten my chin, smile and say "it's oke babe, it's just dunya" (which mean dunya is the indonesian language of world)

When i think the all of problem just a 'dunya' affairs so i can take a deep breath dan taking my problems in stride.

Guys in this world we can found so many things that were unexpected and sometimes very disappointing. You can cry, you can angry, or if you need a time to stop and take a deep breath, just do it , Take your time !

Life is not about competition between you and other people, not about what your achievment and what another people achievment,, not about your boyfriend or another boyfriend, is not about who gets to the end first But life is about your journey, i mean when you always walk in your way in the your right way you"ll gonna be oke, and it''s oke when others make it to the finish line first and you next, doesnt mean you'll be a loser just because of that.

I know sometimes world being harder than before, sometimes world can being dissapointing, and sommetimes world can being so annoyed cause the world seems to crush all the hopes you wake up with every morning. When you fell like that, please stop, stop and take a deep breath. Sometimes we just need a break time, stop judging what the god planning and just give your self space to 'ikhlas'..

It's not easy, talking is always easier than practising. But you know in my religion says "when you have done your best, givin 1001 effort and you still not getting what you want,, and it's a allah plan, and Allah plan is mmoooorrreeee perfect that your plan"

I hope it can be relate with you, and can giving a support for you

i hope when you thing dunya is evil, cruel, disappointing and you hate that. Just remember you not really hate the world, you jst tired with all of your expextation

Take a deep breath, Trust process, trust god planning and always remember

It's just 'Dunya'