Chapter One

Let the writing begin. My name is Nikki Jean Cerulli. Originally, LaGrange, and Crocker. LaGrange is before, when my mother was with my Biological Father. Crocker is what my name was changed to when my mother got with Ross. Cerulli, well that is my married last name and a story to tell you another time.

My birthday is October 17th, 1996 born at 8:28 A.M. in Lewiston, Maine. I am a Libra and I sure am proud of being one. I am 23 almost 24 years old and I have been on my own since I was 13 years old. I love music, drawing and being in nature, I love helping people in the community or just in my life.

I have 4 sisters and two brothers. My sisters, Amanda (step), Marissa (blood), Caitlin (half), and Emily (half). My brothers, Timothy(step) and Joshua (half). I have a wicked big family and yet I feel so alone. But Being Alone is okay. You can figure a lot of things out about a person who doesn't have anyone.

I have been through a lot of shit in my life, I've moved a lot with my parents, traveled a lot on my own. So many different things. My current hobbie right now is filling out this book called "Burn After Writing!" This book is by, Sharon Jones. And might I add she had an incredible idea creating this book. In the very beginning of this book it starts off "You can't hide from the truth, but it sure as hell can hide from you. They say the artist is one who uses lies to tell the truth. One thing's for sure: It's impossible to tell the whole truth, especially when writing about yourself." -"Burn After Writing Page vii First paragraph."-

Anyways, my favorite colors are baby blue, blood red, black, dark blue, and purple. I love to read books. Some of my favorite authors are: James Patterson, Stephen King, Michael Connelly, Lee Childs, and Patricia Cornwell. There are many more but just too many name at this time. Reading books lets me escape from life, it allows me to use my imagination and really become the main character.

I love music. Music has managed to save my life so many times. When I have felt the need to give up, and walk away, to hate myself. Music has given me the opportunity to stay alive. To learn who I am, To learn what emotions I am feeling, to FEEL the emotions I'm feeling. I don't just listen to music because of the beat or because it sounds cool. Or the singer is hot or sounds fucken wonderful. When I listen to music, I feel the beats and rhythms. I understand and hear the words. I feel the music. In my mind, my heart and my soul.

Saving You- By To Write Love On Her Arms, is one song that I have cried to so many times while contemplating whether or not I want to take my own life. This song has been my rock when no one or nothing else has. This song has made me happy, sad, shocked, and amazed. This song is my life!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4rzN4b7C-0

Here it is. If you ever want to just give up, don't copy and paste this song and go and listen to it. Learn it, feel it become one with this song. There's so much more to know about me but for now I leave you with this, NEVER GIVE UP!