The House Of Blue Light

Introduction

This is for the Mystery in 650 Words ViM February Prompt which you can find out about below:

The House Of Blue Light

What am I doing here? How did I get here? How long have I been here? How long will I be here? I sound like a small child.

Every question that comes into my mind begs another question.

When you answer a small child's question, even if you think your answer covers what they need to know they almost always come back with "Why?".

So here I am walking, on this snowy tundra, or is it an ice cap? Ahead of me I can see a house which has lights on, they are blue., or they look blue to me, that might be the effect of the snow and the fact that it is dark, and the moon and stars are out.

But here's the thing.

I keep walking but the house gets no nearer, the distance between me and the house doesn't change. I look back and I see my footprints in the dusty snow trailing way back into the distance. I have been walking for a very long time, maybe forever.

I don't eat, I don't drink, I just walk, and my target is that house, but the house of blue light is as far away now as it was when I started walking, although I can't remember when I started walking or why I started walking, I have to walk, I can't stop.

I am scared about stopping, it is very cold, and keeping moving seems to keep me warm, I know that I must not stop.

I start thinking that I am alone, have I ever had friends or family? Am I just a solitary being condemned to walk this never-ending wilderness trail with only the house of blue light to break the monotony of the landscape?

I am the only living thing on this godforsaken snow-covered tundra and the only sound is the wind and the crunch of my boots on the ground. I must go on, I have no choice.

The are stars, the moon, and traces of a Borealis in the sky to give me a little respite from what I see and eye level.

I start to think, as I have many times, that this may be a purgatory or a hell and a sentence for a life badly lived, but that is just the way my mind works, and I know if that has any justification because I cannot remember any other life but this.

Has my memory been lost or wiped? Am I in a dream? Will I ever wake from this nightmare, if it is a nightmare and not not real life? But this is no life at all.

The only thing that is keeping me going is the house of blue light, but I cannot see anyone in the house or around it, but the fact that there are lights on implies that someone does live there, and possibly they might know why I am here. They can only tell me if I get to the house, but that seems an impossible task.

I want to lie down on the snow, not because I am tired or want to give up, but just to see if I can lie down, but I can't, my body will not let me do it. If I lie down what will happen? I don't know, but my body just keeps walking, step by step toward a place that gets no closer.

Because I have been focused on walking and wondering why I am here and the fact that I am not getting any closer to the house, I hadn't noticed that the Moon, the Borealis, and the Stars have not changed position.

This must be a nightmare, I will wake up, I have to wake up.

But I keep on walking, and the house of blue light gets no closer, I don't know where I am or why I am here.

It's a mystery