Bad habits
Too Critical of Myself
I guess I should start by saying, the whole decision to write this bit came from the intrusive thought I had while searching Google “this will look suspicious sitting in my recent searches. Even though I’m looking it up about a friends kid, it could get used against me.” This thought happens often with Google and DING! You guessed it, I’ve had my search history checked by my significant other. Not even two hours ago, I found myself thinking about the fact I had spent a little too long on Facebook, better watch it! Why? Because although he claimed he didn’t also monitor that, my phone notified me of screen time. Could have been innocent enough being just that, but can it EVER be JUST THAT? Nope. I spent THREE HOURS on Facebook, thank you for that reminder today, Apple. It has now been weaponized against me and my productivity for the day, in the most innocent of ways, of course. I can hardly ever allow my sink to fill with dishes anymore. Is it because I’m OCD or a neat freak? Honestly, I never used to care either way. Now my internal dialogue does. No one is here to tell me what a waste of space I am in the flesh, but they never really leave your mind. One of my kids acts out and I instantly feel guilty like I’ve failed as a parent..is it because I believe I’m a failure? No. Is it because I expect them to be perfect? Nope. It’s because that seed of doubt was planted and watered for years. It’s flourished into one of the biggest plants in my head and now I’m trying to drown it. Do you know how hard it is to kill a flourishing plant with years and years of roots? You might as well tell me good job breathing because at this point, I have to remind myself that it’s okay to take up space. It’s okay to have a voice and feelings. It’s okay to mess up. It’s okay to relax on the days you’re feeling exhausted without playing that tape in the back of your mind that you are, indeed, lazy and a waste of space like you’ve been told in the past. I think someone who is overly critical of themselves is like a divine piece of artwork that has had a lot of effort and manipulation and thought and time put into it to mold it into something that stays. Stays stagnant. Compliant. Doubtful. Hesitant. Insecure.
By Brittany Dalton4 years ago in Confessions
Him
Dreaming of you. Who are you and why do I keep dreaming of you? You take many forms, but the vibes are always the same. Whether or not you are someone I know or a complete stranger I always dream of you. Local celebrities that are on my mind or a minor crush that I pass by on the street and think that you are cute. Why are you haunting my dreams and why do I feel so guilty about it? Whenever I dream and then pass by one of the people, I dreamed you being, I always feel a rush that normally never comes over me. What is this rush and why do I crave it? I crave the closeness and the connection but is that so wrong? To want someone who can step into your soul and physical being and take away all word and thoughts you might have.
By Linda Stanfill4 years ago in Confessions
Another step outside of your comfort zone，It can only make you better
Humans are known for their love of comfort. We can relax in comfort because there is no fight-or-flight response, no worry, and no uncertainty. We now live mostly in comfort, having eliminated most aspects of survival. We work to earn money to feed our families, then return home and relax in front of the television. We are no longer hunting for food or fighting for survival the way our forefathers did. We take pleasure in the comfort of our surroundings.
By CIURCANU DANIEL4 years ago in Confessions
The Secrets of a Massive Introvert
There once lived a girl. She came from a land of horror that brought great sadness. This land was her only home and it brought true fear to her will of surviving it through. The magic that the evil people held and the spells they would cast were so full of wickedness that she did not know how to breathe. The prayers of these people were contained with hate. The thoughts of them were so horrid and incompetent that then the use of psychic capabilities then turned into something unsatisfactory. It feels almost as if it was truly impossible to get it out when there is just way too much pain to deal with.
By Keanna Barry 4 years ago in Confessions
5 Major Benefits of Corporate Training in Digital Marketing
As we all know that the competition has increased widely in the market due to the digital revolution. With so many options available, businesses have to improve their strategies and workforce efficiency. They need to provide their employees with the proper digital marketing training. There are several benefits companies get by providing their employees with digital marketing training. Here we have the five significant benefits organizations offer their employees with Corporate Training in Digital Marketing. Let's get started:
By E-Commerce4 years ago in Confessions
Alcohol my Old “Friend"
The first post I ever made on Vocal in April of 2021, documenting my first attempt at getting sober for what felt like the millionth time. It's titled "55 days Sober". I go into depth about my struggle with Anxiety and Depression and how I drank more to combat the symptoms of both conditions. About 5 days after posting I had my first drink after 2 months of being sober. I only drank that one drink, so I thought, "I finally have control over my drinking, I don't have a problem like I thought." That was the biggest lie I ever told myself. This was the beginning of my darkest, but most meaningful setback to date.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Confessions
Sooji Dosa - Instant Crispy Rava Dosa
Sooji Dosa - Instant Crispy Rava Dosa Recipe: If you want to make something good and quick in the morning , then semolina i.e. rava dosa can be made, sooji dosa is prepared very easily and very quickly, to prepare it in advance There is no need to do it, and it is very tasty to eat.
By GOUSIYA THABASUM4 years ago in Confessions
recollection 1
I had walked past the store many times. When walking to friends houses, when going to stores. It was a phone store, the windows were nothing but glass. It sat on a corner near a graveyard. The block was usually deserted at night. The neighborhood was usually quiet. I knew a lot about the area, the people, the place.
By Jelani Williams4 years ago in Confessions
How Karaoke Boosted My Confidence
For many of us, karaoke is the closest any of us will get to a pop star life. I’ve learned that karaoke is a fun way to boost my confidence. Before I always used to associate karaoke as an activity you do when you’re drunk with a half-eaten bag of chips and empty bottles and glasses. Doing it sober is a different experiance than doing karaoke when drunk. I thought karaoke was embarrassing as I suck at singing. Being drunk and karaoke always seems to be a fun combination, but I had never done it sober before until recently.
By Chloe Gilholy4 years ago in Confessions
Drop-dead Gorgeous
He passed under sapphire skies and lollygagged a little while. For how long he could not tell you. It was a passing that he did not want to mention. Or repeat in anyway shape or form. Sometimes he wanted to catch his dreams and melt them into butter. A nice syrupy butter that would release his endorphins into a miasma of affection.
By Alex Jennett4 years ago in Confessions
