It is Inside Again/Take It From Me

These two poems are kinda the same, but also not. They show different sides of what I’ve been feeling lately. There’s this darkness that doesn’t go away—it just hangs around, even when I’m trying to be happy. I can laugh, I can smile, but that heavy feeling doesn’t leave. It’s always there, in the background.

But the second poem? That one’s about why I’m still here. Why I keep trying. It’s because of my friends. I want them here with me. I want them to know I care, even if I don’t always show it the right way. Sometimes I disappear, leave messages on read, fall off the map. But it’s not because I don’t love them. I do—so much.

I just get stuck in my head. And when that happens, everything gets quiet. But I still think about them. I still smile when I remember things we did or said. And I hope they don’t give up on me. I hope they know I’m still here, still trying.

Even when I’m in a dark place, I’ll be there for them. I’ll always care. I just hope they can feel that, even through the silence.

I appreciate you. I really do. I may be silent in the more recent days, but I promise I'll be here for you.

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I smile because they need me too.
A flicker of light they could cling too
"You are always so happy," they said,
"I cannot see you sad, or I would be too."
So, I painted joy on every breath.
In hopes to hold them back from meeting death.
But behind my grin darkness krept.
A promise broken, secrets kept.

A figure loomed, I could not see.
Everyday, it fed off me.
A hand like knifes, it stole off me.
"You are alone, give it to me"
"Give me your light and what they see"
I gave my warmth & every spark
To keep their minds from going dark
But with every laugh and cheerful part
It dug it's claws deeper into my heart

Now I sit where silence grows
Feelings hide where no one knows
Not a monster from the night
But guilt, sadness, and a slight fright
It leans above me & will not flee
As it softly whispers, "give it to me."

That's why I am here, I gave all of me
People pleasing became my prison
I tried for everyone to bring a light
Dimming mine night by night
Now carrying a shadow, does it belong to me?
I believe a burden, I let inside not watching me.
Of course it belongs to me.

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I smile because I want you too
A flicker of light for you to cling too
The darkness in you, I see it grow
Its in a place no one knows

So I offer my joy with every breath
Not to hold me back, but keep you from death

Behind your grin, a shadow shows
But, I still let the healing grow
A figure looms in me, I have made it tame
Feeding slow, yet I remain
Its hands still cold, it's voice still near
But I quiet the dark when you are here
"Take my warmth, & what you see"
"If it helps you hold on- please take it from me."

I'll give each laugh and cheerful part
So you won't feel hollow at heart
Because you are not alone
Even in the darkness you've known

The monsters might still feel here
As your still breathing, still real and true
I'll keep standing here with you
Not a monster here, just love that sta
Even through my darkest days
It leans above me, I do not flee
I whisper gently, "take it from me"

That's why I am here, I choose to be
Not for praise, not for fear
But so you feel someone near

So, i will brighten your light
Even if it dims mine night by night
You are not alone you see
I gave you my light
Please, stay with me