Welcome to the New Year

Holy Geez, it's about time 2025 has ended. I don't know what that was about but I would like to not do that again, thank you.

This is the time of year we do our New Years Resolutions and goals for the upcoming year. I don't think I had any for last year persay but I did have some goals. Did I accomplish any of my goals I had set up for myself? Honestly, I don't think so. Have I made progress towards accomplishing my goals? Yes.

I have actually made some healthy steps and discussions for myself. Which is progress of getting to the end goal. I'm just not where I thought I was going to be at this time of year. So much has happened in the year of 2025 that I did stray off the path.

What happens if we just make it to the goal? Like there is no plot twist or bumps in the road. We just go from setting a goal and succesfully completing it. Would we actually be satisfied with the end result?

If anything I've learned alot about myself and life in general while trying to accomplish these goals. No, I didn't meet the end goal or finished them I'm still working on them. But there are alot of lessons though. You can't grow as a individual if you don't learn as you go.

So, what are my goals for the year of 2026? To take the lessons that I have learned from the previous year and apply them to this year. Mostly still learning boundaries with myself and sticking to them. Especially when it comes to other people.

I've spent so much time trying to set healthy boundries with myself and others but then told my boundries are too much. Honestly, they're not. They're just the basic human boundaries. The bar is basically on the ground.

If I learned anything, it's that life is short and no one is going to respect you anyways. Boundries, no boundries, the bar being on the ground. I rather be alone than to have people in my life that don't respect or actually care. People only care when you set boundaries and actually stick to them because that means they can't walk all over you.

I feel like instead of focusing on resolutions and goals like saving an x amount of money, amount of weight lose, traveling and putting all my effort into learning to love myself and sticking to healthy boundaries, listening to my mind and body. Then all of the things I would like to accomplish would just fall into place.

Would I be delusional for taking a different approach for making it to the end goal? Maybe. The thing is I never truley accomplish the goals I have for myself. It's time to find out why and learn who I am. I've spent so many years changing myself and putting myself on a shelf for other people. I have a genereal idea of who I am but if you ask me to describe myself I can't do that. I've never been able to answer that question.

I spent my whole life trying to figure out why I was different, why I couldn't fit in. No one likes me if I try to be myself. If I push myself down, put a mask on and be like everyone else, it's still not good enough. Well, 2026 is my year and too damn bad. Time to start putting me first and figure out what I am about.

People say not to care what others have to think or say about you but those are the same people that were never told they were too much for being themselves. They never experienced the feeling of being excluded from things because they are "being too much" or different. Maybe they have and they learned that you have to be alone to figure out what your true needs, values and wants are.

Alright then. Lets welcome this new year and say good bye to bullshit and shitty people. It's okay to have stromy days because after a strom there is always a rainbow.