Chuck it in the F*ck it bucket
Two years ago I was returning home with almost nothing but hope. I was mentally and emotionally shredded to bits. The only thing I had was a deeper connection to the universe than ever. One thing I hadn't figured out quite yet though, was how to let go of things that were out of my control. I understand there is a lot more within my control than I thought before, but there are still outside influences that I can't do anything about. At the time of creation, one big thing out of my control was California's DOJ (department of justice). It was infuriating for me, a bonafide control freak, nit-picking, often type-A personality type in recovery, to learn how to let go of that which is not mine to hold on to. I have struggled immensely with learning to discover what is within my control and how to accept and let go of what isn't (I work hard on that “wisdom” part of the Serenity mantra these days).
