Sandra Tena
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Shadowlands
A misty and sleepy morning. A tired morning. A surreal afternoon, full of duskiness and of feverish dreams… full of spasms of pain that only dreams can cure… and a jerk of my feet that wakes me up sharply. Then the cold, intense cold and more fever – or is it still the first one? I adjust myself in the sofa, yet remain sunken.
By Sandra Tena3 years ago in Fiction
Soliloquy
Remember that dream? Dancing in the school hallway… But, was it me or was it Azucena who danced? Was it me or was it Azucena who had the dream? Or was it…? After so many years without dancing, could it have been destiny? Was it telling me to wake up? Maybe it was a message so you could get back to yourself. A compelling calling from the soul.
By Sandra Tena3 years ago in Fiction
Let Go
You’ll leave tomorrow and not return... Will I miss you? Yes, I will, I won’t try to hide a truth that everyone knows. I'll cry for you, I'll pull my hair and cry for you, miss you forever and all the good things you gave me. But I’ve grown, matured, it’s time to let you go and begin a new stage in my life. I have to be myself again, the real me, not hiding under the veil of you. And I will know for ever that once without you, better things will come.
By Sandra Tena3 years ago in Fiction
The beginning
I really can’t take it anymore. The hurt, the ache, the relentless teasing just travel with me wherever I go. Yeah, I’m an oddball, but is that a good enough reason for people to be so evil to one single person? To one single girl? To a girl for being single? Why? I’m not choosing to be single, I’m not choosing to be different… Is it the reading? That I don’t wear makeup or “trendy” clothes? I don’t look good with trendy clothes, anyway, not with my body. And makeup ages me, why would I ever want that? I know I’ll never be able to get a boyfriend, that’s why I’m not trying to… but is that enough of a reason for them to do what they did? This is it for me. I’ve made my peace with being different, but why can’t they just leave me alone? If they don’t want to be my friends, if none of them want to be my boyfriend, or even think that anyone in Italy will be interested in me, what’s the point of doing what they did? Of putting me on display? If I wear t-shirts to the pool, then just let me be… If I’m hiding my body just let me be, I’ve got my reasons. What was even the point...? I’m not choosing to be naked in front of other people, so why force me to it?
By Sandra Tena3 years ago in Fiction
Dear Hacker,
So, you want to take my likeness and profit from it? Ok, take as well the scars, the pain, the sexual abuse, miscarriages and gaslighting. Take the humiliation and the suicidal thoughts I had to fight my way through to get to where I am. Take the exhaustion of having to survive in the middle of a pandemic in freckin’ Britain whilst fighting to keep my visa, my career and my home. Take it all, as it all comes with my face and my body, and you can't have one without the other. Take it and burn with it as I had to do in order to get to where I am - it's been 40 years for me, I sure you can handle them, right?
By Sandra Tena3 years ago in Humans
