Remy LeBeau
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Remember to always love yourself & give yourself the time and peace you deserve. I am very honest. Never allow any1 change who u are to self, love yourself and allow u to feel and get through. You’ll be okay I promise
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How can I say goodbye?
My dear friend, we met in such hilarious ground brought on by a harmless question so many years ago where we worked. We shared so many laughed, tears relationship stories and drinks. We would hangout at work after work and on our days off, you would even come to the building on your own time to hangout with me and share and partake in shenanigans that we both found amusing. Of course with time we had our ups and downs and fallouts, yet we always remind close and tight. We became so close and so tight we became twins in a sense in our personalities our moods even the way we dressed. Looking back at how we were around other people I find hilarious even now because they never could understand us. One of the funniest nights we had out with friends we went to play pool and oddly enough I don’t wear shorts and you hated the thought of a skirt. This one particular night you decided to shock the entire group with not only a skirt but the boots to match. I’ll say this now like we said that night your “hooker” boots made to you like a japanimation fighter to me because of your hairstyle and color and the way clothes would look on you. Though once the time was spent at the pool hall You driving in those boots was hilarious because you said to me with a straight face “I can’t drive in these damn things” as you took one off at a time and every stop light. As you took them off you shouted “incoming” as one flew to the trunk of the car while laughing. I found it amazing how great your aim was especially while driving. This was the night you forced me to celebrate my birthday along with yours, now celebrating both birthdays on the same night was just awesome for me. Hanging out with you having fun seeing you laugh and have fun was the greatest for me. We became lightening friends and quick twins that nobody could separate. On another night you shocked me again because you literally became Trinity from the matrix from head to toe. Hair, glasses, clothes, boots and coat you looked just like her. I will never forget the great times you and I had, we almost made it to 3 decades twin. Watching your kids grow up and becoming close to them I cannot imagine them without you, you were truly mama bear. If anyone or anything was to rub you/them the wrong way you would show your claws and sharp fangs to the world to protect yours. On occasion you would call on me to assist, I promised to always have your back and be there for you, this will never change. Even after you moved back to New York by way of Oklahoma we remained very close throughout the years that seemed to be nonexistent for the most part. We did have our months were we got so busy we didn’t speak but we never stopped being friends. Now it comes 1/24/21 2 days after my birthday you leave all of us behind. Twin we started another year together, I know you were tired and missed your mom so much I could see it and feel it. I know leaving your babies was a hard choice to make. At first I was upset at you for leaving, now I understand. You missed your mom and I know you had a full life and you went to sleep. I won’t say goodbye to my twin I will say see you later, I know you’re with your mom watching over your babies and at times right here with me. Even though I’ve lost my twin physically I know you’re still running side by side with me as always just in a form that is eternal and not for a few moments. Twin I will not say farewell we are always and forever we will meet again twin so I shall not say goodbye even though I cry every time I think it I will not speak it this isn’t goodbye it’s just see you later twin in another form for another life. Tell your mom Remy says hi and I’ll see you both together again in another life. Sleep well my twin your face has finished never forget we are in this together always and forever; till we meet again my Jen, my twin.
By Remy LeBeau5 years ago in Families
Long way home...
Doing a lot of looking over my life and my past relationship. I’ve noticed that I lost a lot of me in him, which is never good for anyone. I would have never thought that I would have every done that. Yet when I noticed it was done for me it was already to late because then I didn’t know what a narcissist was. “How foolish” After doing a lot of reading and a lot of watching and paying attention. I came to realize what he is exactly. This finding this out I would say certain things just to see how he would react/respond. In some cases it was spot on, other cases he caught on and tried to flip what I said to make it seem like it wasn’t me. In fact! he played the roll of emotion and compassion. In my opinion he should have won an award for best actor/liar. That’s beside the point, yet as we continued doing the dance of me wanting to see him become the person I knew and loved I continued to stay. “Idiot” So as time progressed and I got over all of it I began to play the part that he’d grown accustomed, while I would say what he wanted to hear and act loving and concerned, I would literally have him on speaker as I was continuing what I was doing; “Not really paying attention”. He never caught on to that “how stupid of him” yet I knew he was only asking for money which I stopped the “Bank Of Remy” long before that. Every time he would ask I would come up with an excuse as to not. Which I think quick on my feet, that I never let him see. So while I was keeping him in the complete darkness then forgetting to respond to his question. I would just keep putting him off as much as I could. Until this awesome point I reached to stop answering his calls I would only text and my texts to him would be short almost 1 word. One day he actually asked me why I’m not the way I once was with him? I then responded “Now you want to ask me that after all the crap you’ve put me through, are you serious?” Before he could even respond I dropped another equallazation “since you have been blazing your trial let me do what you’ve been doing, I’m going to do to you exactly what you’ve done to me and blaze my trail. Being the narcissist that he is he responded “if that what you feel you need to do, do what you need to do”. Perfectly fine I thought as I said okay I’m over it and this I’ll talk to you later, as he said I love you I just hung up. I literally had no emotion for him at this point and that part of me just kept gaping with space. Weeks later when I decided to answer one of his many calls I said “haven’t you noticed yet why I’ve pulled away and disconnected from you” he responds yeah sounding like he lost his best friend. Which I still had no emotion. I then stated all this time I’ve been trying to fix our bond out connection when you didn’t attempt not once to help me fix us so what was I trying for? He remained silent. Of course what could he possibly have to say at this point so with that silence I proceeded to go down the list of things I went through and said now do you think if the shoe was on the other foot, would you have stayed with me if I was doing everything you’ve done to me to you? “No” I said exactly so what is it that you want from me?, the bank is closed and I have nothing left to give so what are you really wanting from me? He stated “you I want you” I responded “hmm really, then show me don’t tell me”.
By Remy LeBeau5 years ago in Humans
Finding my Peace
I figure after sometime it's time I'd start writing again just to see where it takes me mentally. Though it has been awhile and so much has happened I figured why not, what harm could it do? There are things I need to get out and somethings I need to talk out but, lately I have been on a certain type of rollercoaster emotionally that it takes control of me and removes me from who I really am.
By Remy LeBeau5 years ago in Humans
