Maria D
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Just someone who enjoys to write, and explore her mind. I love to read, especially when they turn into movies in my head.
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My 5 Mind Rules!
1. Do things for yourself before anyone else, be selfish! Why? Because at the end of the day you only have yourself, whether you can admit it or not people in this day are not how they used to be. You can not worry about others who simply do not worry about you, you should not stress out about others who do not worry about you, and lastly, do things for yourself! That car you wanted to buy, but didn't, go buy it! That outfit you wanted to wear but someone didn't like it, WEAR IT. Stop worrying about what others think. Self care and self love is the most important thing a woman can do for herself and her mental health which is what my next rule is about!
By Maria D4 years ago in Motivation
How Overthinking Impacted My Life
Sometimes when i'm over thinking I just stop for a second take a big breath, and stare at the room for a minute. In that minute I realize that my mind is blank and I feel relieved, relaxed, lighter, and calm. It's crazy how intrusive thoughts can be, and the fact that other people don't even think or worry the way we do, I wish I was as lucky as they are. Although I have been working on myself mentally it definitely is exhausting trying to find your mind every single day. I actually just recently learned that not every one over thinks and that it is actually a form of anxiety. My whole life since I was in preschool I used to worry about what other kids thought of me, if I looked stupid, if what I said was stupid. I used to think no one liked me when I wouldn't even talk to anyone. I used to think everyone would look at me and make fun of me when in reality the whole entire time they probably really didn't care, I mean after all we were just kids at the time. You can imagine how tough it was to finish my entire school years feeling that way, and to top it off I had the biggest heart so of course my feelings were heart very, easily. People used to tell me I was literally the nicest, and I was. I cared about other people and their feelings but it might have been due to the fact that I really believed they all felt the same way I did. I wish I would have known then what I known now so many people did not deserve the satisfaction of having me around. Was I bullied? I think so. I hate thinking about those times cause it makes me feel sick, and sad. I did nothing to deserve hate. I did nothing to deserve those nights where I stayed up crying and I couldn't even tell people what was wrong. I hated that I couldn't even go out without thinking that everyone around me was whispering about me, I felt ugly, alone, at some points, yes plural, I did think about taking the easy way out but I couldn't do that to my parents, they gave me everything as a child and I always hated myself for feeling unhappy when I wanted to be so bad, I had everything I ever wanted, my family was great to me. It's so crazy how much I have changed, I still do over think and have bad anxiety but I am learning how to manage it, and I am going to beat this. It has caused so much damage to my life as it has impacted the way I live, the way I act, the anger that I have built up inside of me. It definitely impacted my relationship and I used to tell my husband that he deserved better, but he stuck around. He stuck around and I am thankful for him every single day because if it wasn't for him I probably would not be here today. Now I wake up every morning and express my love and gratitude towards him and I know he loves it, and I hope it was worth it. The next step in my journey is expressing my love towards my parents, my siblings, I mean they know I love them but like I said I had trouble expressing myself back then, I just want them to know that I have loved them and I will protect and cherish them every single day of my life. We will fight this fight together because I can see the pain in their eyes. Anxiety and overthinking will no longer take over my life.
By Maria D4 years ago in Confessions
