Dark Ascending

I do not like the person I become when I hurt you

That person that I become, I do not know her.

She's says thing that I do not mean,

she say's those things because she is afraid.

She is afraid that you might hurt my heart

and tear every last piece I have left apart.

She knows you deserve better, but you are her best friend.

She does not have much and you are

a little piece of what she hopes heaven will be like.

I do not want to be this way,

I do not understand why I was created this way,

why one day I know who I am

but the next someone takes over

I can not comprehend what is going on.

The voices in my head, I hope they do not scare you away.

I love you to infinity and I hope you stay

as I learn to cope and hopefully send these voices

and these people astray.