Kimmiekins4
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Here to share my thoughts, hopes, and dreams. Telling stories of my navigation through anxiety, depression and alcohol use. I am also working on my first novel, and want to share it on here with all of you as well!
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Too Little too Late
"Sadly sometimes it's too late, and thats the thing about time we cannot get it back." Life has ways of teaching us all kinds of lessons, some easier to accept than others. Some you won't learn until long after events have happened. Then once you finally realize, it's too little too late.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Confessions
Finding the New Me
"I'm a different person compared to the person I was this time last year." I was talking to my best friend the other day and we got on the subject of how this year has changed us. That we are realizing that the version of us that we've always known is changing and evolving. I won't speak for her and her experience as that is her story to tell, but her is mine. I hope whoever reads this can relate in someway, and it reminds you that you're not alone in how you feel.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Humans
Listening to the Rain
"The sound of rain needs no translation." I love rainy days, and being from California they are few and far between. I try to take advantage of them when I can, as a way to just unwind. Hearing the rain hit the roof, and water rushing through the gutters reminds me of being a kid. It brings me back to all the times I spent at my grandmas and listening to the rain hit the tin roof of her trailer, and something about that is just so comforting. Her 81st birthday would have been yesterday December 11th, and this year her birthday has been particularly hard on me. So in a way I feel like she is here with me in spirit.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Motivation
This isn’t going to be easy
"The pain you feel today, will be the strength you feel tomorrow." Day 2-5: December 6th 2021 So if you saw my last post "The Beginning of My New Fitness Journey" than you'll know I've decided to blog my process. I figure it would be something good for me to look back on, and I also hope that it will reach at least on person and help them too. Everyones journey looks different, but I think we all face some of the same struggles no matter what path we are on.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Motivation
The Beginning of a New Fitness Journey. Top Story - December 2021.
"You may not be there yet, but you are closer than you were yesterday." Day 1: As I am writing this the day is December 2nd 2021. I know, pretty bad time to start considering its the month of the holidays. Normally I would agree, but now I believe anytime is a good time to start when you truly want to do something. Through this process of figuring out how I am going to get back into working out I have started to realize that this is the start of my new fitness journey. I keep comparing everything to where I was a few years back and every-time I do it discourages me from doing anything at all.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Longevity
I Spent Thanksgiving Alone
"This one year, it was more than necessary to show myself I wasn't alone even when it was just me, myself, and I." I want to preface that I don't recommend this to everyone, you know yourself best. Holiday's can bring up a lot of emotions, and if you aren't in the right headspace to be by yourself please make sure that you reach out to someone. You are not alone, and your feelings are valid. That being said this is how my first ever Thanksgiving alone went.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Confessions
I fear happiness. Top Story - November 2021.
"Happiness is not out there, it's in you." As I've grown older I begin to realize many things about myself, but one I hadn't yet realized was my fear to be happy. I suppose in my subconscious mind I had always known, but it's now made its way to the forefront. I was watching a video on Youtube titled "Why I am afraid to be happy." by Kari Morton. If you have time I would definitely go and watch it, really gets you thinking.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Confessions
Don’t be scared of your 30s
"Thirty, flirty and thriving." The movie "13 going on 30" came out in 2004, I was 17 years old. At the time I thought 30 was so far away, but looking back time really flew by. I figured I would be a dinosaur by the time I reached that age. Society has a way of making you believe that by the time you hit 30 your life is basically over if you don't have it all together. In this day and age that just isn't true.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Humans
Getting back into working out
"It's okay not to be okay all of the time." I've never been an athlete, sports were never something I was good at. But back in 2015 I went on a fitness journey that ended up making me fall in love with working out. For 3 years I was in the best shape of my life, until the end of 2017 when I had slowly cut back on exercise and began experiencing panic attacks. For a while I kept trying to workout as I knew it would help my anxiety and depression.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Motivation
What I realized once I deleted Facebook.
I made the transition from Myspace to Facebook in 2009 for one reason and one reason only, Farmtown. Just thinking back to those times is weird considering how much has changed since then. None of us knew then how rapidly social media would grow, and how it would change our lives forever.
By Kimmiekins44 years ago in Confessions
