Ariana GonBon
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29yo bi Xicana. There's always more to write about, in more interesting ways than white men.
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I Want A Wife
I want a wife who after her 8 hour day taking care of other people’s emotions, comes home with enough energy to cater to me and my feelings, and does not ask me to do the same. I want a wife who does not ask anything of me until I let her know I am ready for it. I want a wife who will ask me when I will be ready, and is satisfied when the answer is “not right now” with no real commitment to a later time. I want a wife who wants to share about her day with me but only when I am ready, without me knowing that she has already shared about her day with her friends. I want a wife who will sit and watch the TV shows that I want to watch with me until 9pm, and then do the chores we have designated for her. I want a wife who goes to bed early so she’s well-rested for tomorrow. I want a wife who will be understanding of my career without questioning my logic. I want a wife who is interested in my curiosities, and forgives me easily when I forget to ask about hers. I want a wife who doesn’t keep her curiosities to herself, even though I don’t really give her the chance to talk about them when she does bring them up. (To be fair, I get too excited and want to participate so badly that I interrupt her.) I want a wife that does not keep score of when I make mistakes, even when I scold her about the same exact mistakes. I want a wife who does not keep a list of things she has done wrong. It’s like she is attempting not to gaslight herself. I want a wife who wants to have sex with me regularly even though I have not done much beforehand to woo her, except in the way I am comfortable doing so. (I want a wife who does not care about who comes in bed first, mostly because I am so sensitive and always orgasm multiple times.) I want a wife who only wants to hang out with her friends once a month, since we need to work on our relationship, and we don’t get true quality time during the week. I want a wife who prioritizes herself, and is still helpful with my health issues first. I want a wife who will have a conversation with me when I am telling her about what she has done wrong, instead of only responding with “okay.” I want a wife who is understanding of my health issues but does not remind me to remember her own, because I am understanding but I can’t be as understanding when I am dealing with my own shit. I want a wife who doesn’t spend on her credit card. Sometimes she says we can’t afford groceries without it. I want a wife that forgives me when I spend $300 on stamps and coins because my spending impulse is going to happen regardless, so might as well spend it on investments. I want a wife to find a better-paying job. This is the first time I have seen her have a good time in a job. I want a wife who can do a side hustle on top of hanging out with me and regular chores and pulling energy out of her ass. I want a wife who can pull energy out of her ass at all, but who can also relax with me when she gets home. I want a wife who has energy for active things we can do together. I want a wife who can do everything and still have time and energy and space to do her hobbies, because she deserves to have time for that. I want a wife who does not need to be considered. I want a wife who is okay with me making plans with her family and friends without asking her, although I ask her to ask me when she wants to do the same thing. I want a wife who does not focus on whose fault it is, but does take accountability for her actions. I want a wife who does not focus on hypocrisy because everyone is hypocritical anyway, so why focus on it at all? I want a wife who does not care that my family does not know about her, does not care that my family will never know about the work she does. I want a wife who loves me unconditionally and stays unconditionally. I want a wife who is okay with an unfair, equitable relationship, and who still prioritizes herself because I know it’s important to prioritize yourself like I do. I want a wife who is okay that I am still figuring out how to work as and consider us as a couple. Funny enough, in the end, I am the one who asked her to marry me. I want a wife who is okay that I don’t really consider her in my future plans and is, in fact, happy at being invited. I want a wife who realizes what an honor it is that I am inviting her into my pre-planned life and does not want my plans to be adjusted for her and/or our partnership. I want a wife who understands that change is difficult for me, and I expect her to adjust to this quickly. I want a wife who is my everything. I cannot be her everything, and it is ridiculous for her to even expect that of me. I want a wife who dances the way I do. I don’t prefer to go out dancing. She’s constantly asking to go. I’ve rarely seen her dance the way she likes to. I can’t remember the last time I saw the joy it brings her.
By Ariana GonBon6 months ago in Humans
How To Break Yourself Down
What does it take to break yourself down? // Start with the trachea, removing your voice so you cannot scream out the pain // Crack open your sternum, breaking out rib-by-rib // Choose to place them gently on the table or throw them in the dirt and hope you are holy enough for a woman to incarnate // Snap your pelvic bone into thirds, one for each leg and one for you // Drain the spinal fluid and eat the cartilage so the vertebrae rattle together and beacon foxes to feast // Make a hollow booming of you femurs // Beat the timpanis with your tibias to announce the death of your flesh and toll against your ossicles // Pop your metatarsals out, always longer than expected // Lastly, tap your fingers against your skull before you separate the proximal from the middle from the distal // Use your teeth // Now found together, skuttle amongst the crabs who will pick you clean of memory of sin and sainthood // in an animalistic life you imagined to live.
By Ariana GonBon7 months ago in Poets
