The Parking Lot

I never even wanted it, ya know?

You knew.

I wanted space. I wanted quiet.

But you snuck in

I let you.

I wanted space but somehow

I’m looking up at you in a parking lot

While you hold me close

I wanted quiet but somehow

Your voice is in my ear

And my knees feel weak

It’s the dead of winter

But your words warm me

Your touch makes me melt

Our breath in the cold air is just one cloud

I don’t know mine from yours.

I know that this is the moment I allow myself to feel hopeful

Why did I do that

I never even wanted it.

So why does this moment play over

And over in my head

You snuck in

But you slammed out

And I’m stuck in this damn parking lot

This is what I wanted.

So why am I still looking for you?