What is Reality

What is Reality? For anyone reading this I challenge you to share your own thoughts of what is reality. For me, the meaning has changed over time. Years ago, my reality was dull and sad. I did not see a future. All I knew then was that my life was what it was, whether I was happy or not nothing i could do would change it.

In May 2018 after returning from a trip to Thailand, I escaped that life draining environment. My family took me in and nursed my soul back to health. The first few months were strange for me. Freedom was a foreign thing. I still asked for permissions to go outside or eat or drink. I would even inform them of when I was using the bathroom. I spent the summer and majority of winter finding me. I reconnected with old friends i had not seen in over 6 years. This point in my life my reality met things were black and white. All actions had consequences good or bad and it was my choice whether to acknowledge them. I became cold hearted; I began watching people and how they react. Often, I would find me being a fake mimicking and manipulating others.

In 2019 I had spent months in depression I felt everything from jealousy, love, abandonment, worthlessness. My stress levels had risen so high I could not breathe anymore. Smoking pot did nothing, sleep did not come easy, I was not kind to my body or spirit. On July 21 my birthday, my body crashed hitting rock bottom. I worked night shift and by 5 am my head started to pound. By 7 am I was driving home looking up at the blue sky It felt like the car was flying. Driving was extremely difficult. I made it home and before bed I got a wet washcloth and placed it on my forehead before sleep. Just a few hours later i woke up with a fever and ended up at the hospital. There I suffered a panic attack I remember the heart monitor spiking and the nurse trying to calm me down. They had to drug me. I cried quietly after that. There in that room alone I found solitude is not so bad and accepted it.

I met a guy shortly after that. He taught me open-mindedness because of him I learned everyone's reality is different. Perception creates environment and feeling. What is good for one is bad for another. Instead of getting offend by others i began understanding their position and helping instead of making it worse. Religion turned into just being spiritual. I learned about the universe and manifesting. I discovered the secret that year.

On New Year’s Eve of 2020 I found myself with a group of people and not one of them were with me in previous years. I was grateful for having my own home and a steady job and I was socially satisfied. Despite the pandemic I was lucky 2020 was a breeze. I lost my job but found a better one not once was I broke because things happened very “conveniently” just when bills would be due money would pop up and I didn’t even have to borrow it or use unemployment I am grateful for all of it.

What is reality? Reality is created by you; it is exactly how you manifested it. If you do not want to be overweight, think that you are skinny, and it will come. If you are poor, then think that money comes easily, and you will have it when you need it. Do everything with feeling and watch how you phrase things and most importantly be grateful and your reality will shape itself around those thoughts and feelings.

If this is the first time you are hearing of such a thing, I urge you to dig deeper and learn more