depression
It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.
Revving Up
It's time again. Time again. November through December time again. My mind begins to race. Thoughts racing in and out. Revving up for this time of year. This time of year. The fight to control those damn emotional triggers that are so very hard to not feel. My senses are on fire. I feel my body try to fight what my mind feels it needs. This time of year I want to feel numb. No, I do not wish to exist!
By Wendy Niffenegger7 years ago in Psyche
When Muted Emotions Give Relief
It might sound a little bizarre at first, how can dampened emotions provide any kind of relief? Why would you welcome that "nothing zone" from depression where all you do is function? There’s no sparkle, no raison d’être; you retreat within your walls and go through the motions waiting for feeling and enjoyment to return. You wait to live instead of exist, so how could this also be a tonic?
By Alicia Brunskill7 years ago in Psyche
Depression
I saw a few different therapists throughout my life. First, for the childhood trauma that I suffered, and the nightmares it caused—with no positive results. The next was after my daughter was killed, and again, no results. I saw another counselor after my youngest two girls were removed from my custody, same results. Frustration had set in. I lost faith that I would ever find the help I truly needed. My depression was so bad that it debilitated me, left me unable to work, so I applied for disability. In the application process, I was asked to receive a mental health evaluation, which led me to search for yet another counselor. This one would prove to be my savior! He gave me the tools I needed to be capable of managing my depression on my own. Not only to manage it, but to recognize when it is setting in. So, I am going to pass this knowledge on to you, with the hopes that it helps you as well.
By Michelle Frank7 years ago in Psyche
How Do You Do It?
Recently I attended my local community's monthly soup night to show support not only for our towns vets but for a new organization called Alliance for Hope. If your not familiar with Alliance for Hope it's an organization that helps family and communities find helpful resources to understand, cope, prevent and heal after a loss of a suicide and provide support to survivors. For a small town of not much more than 300 people a loss of our youth and older members of the community is devastating.
By Wendy Niffenegger7 years ago in Psyche
Depression
I was first diagnosed with depression in 1997, after the birth of my second child. Postpartum depression, they called it. And I was only diagnosed with that after attempting to step out into traffic. That was the first time my best friend saved my life.
By Michelle Frank7 years ago in Psyche
Drowning
It’s a bit like drowning. At first, you're at the surface and you think you're doing great but suddenly, with one shift movement, your head is under water and you can’t guide air to your lungs. Panic gets to you and before your brain can comprehend the situation and get you out of it, you've lost too much air. The alarm goes off in your head and without even thinking, you take a breath. But instead of air, water fills your lungs, making every single part of them radiate, the intense pain tearing thyself apart right before you drown.
By E L U S I V E7 years ago in Psyche
Emptiness
Do you ever have one of those days where you just sit and relax and let all your feelings or lack there of, consume you? I've been doing a lot of that lately. My feelings are jumbled and mixed and it feels like any emotion that I feel just gets sucked up into this void of emptiness and gets lost and locked up in this vacuum of space in my mind. It's maddening; not knowing how to feel or what I'm feeling fully. I've never felt like this before.
By Elijah Taylor7 years ago in Psyche
Truth
I used to think that time would sort me out. I used to think that in time everything would smooth itself over and soon enough I would be happy (whatever the hell "happy" even is). I used to think that by talking the words I needed to talk, or crying the years I needed to cry, I would be OK... I would be sorted out... I would be "happy". But it seems like these goals I set myself are no longer achievable, or at least they may be but just aren't in my current mindset.
By Alex Mustard7 years ago in Psyche
Depression Is Not Your Friend
We all get sad and lonely. We all feel like the world is closing in on us. I understand. I've been struggling with depression for years, and it's something that's very hard to get through. Sometimes when you're depressed, you feel like you're the only one in the world and you're fighting all of this alone. You can feel like no one loves you or cares for you, so you pull yourself away from the people in your life.
By Amanda Doyle7 years ago in Psyche
The Battle in My Mind
I remember sitting anxiously in the doctor’s office wondering if I truly needed to be there. I had considered turning back several times on the drive there and I continued to question it as my two-year-old ran circles around and the baby cried no matter what I did to try and calm her. Was I really depressed? It could just be a change in hormones. Maybe I’m just going crazy. Oh, how I wished that were true. To be honest, I probably should have gone to a doctor several years before.
By Paige Guffey7 years ago in Psyche
My Mental State
I have always been depressed. Looking back on my childhood, through all my memories, although at times I was happy. Deep deep down, I was always sad. I am 18 now and it took me a long time to be able to fully admit to myself that I have something wrong with me. But with me, having this problem is just who I am. I am not less of a person because I have depression or because I want to die, I am still a human being who deserves everything a “normal person” would get.
By chrystal wray7 years ago in Psyche
