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In Case of Emergency . Content Warning.
Fran was 45, a single mom of 3 and exhausted. It seemed like every time she would try to find a way to get out of some shit, well ya know the saying, “if it ain’t one thing it’s another.” She was working double overtime at the hospital, braiding hair out her kitchen, delivery driving and selling feet pics online. To anybody else that would seem like a hustlers mentality, but in all actuality, this was Fran pushing herself way past the limits of being a hustler, she felt like a slave to her own circumstances. Tommy was a great husband, at first. He was always working and helping with the kids, and then one day he just…didn’t. He didn’t go to work, he didn’t help with the kids, he just left. Now granted everything wasn’t all sunshine and roses, but he’ll whose relationship is? And it wasn’t her fault. That last baby, Fran told Tommy, I see things getting a little more difficult coming soon, I can’t be on my feet all the time like I was with last pregnancy, I have to take a maternity leave. He acted like he was ok with that, but his actions proved otherwise. Legally they are still married, but he’s been gone for 3 years, Fran started out being worried and concerned and heartbroken. She posted missing signs everywhere in the neighborhood. She rallied up friends and family member and neighbors and started a search party after the police wouldnt help. Saying that “Tommy is a grown man, maybe he just needed sometime alone..”. They never found not one clue to lead to his whereabouts , alive or dead. Now she was sitting at the kitchen table, looking over bills, thinking to herself, “I hope the motherfucker is dead..at least we’d get some insurance money.” She chuckled to herself a little bit, but then, that thought really started to run around in her head. “If he is dead, wouldn’t you have been notified by now? That motherfucker ain’t dead, he’s laid up with some hooker with no kids…but he loves the kids. Wouldn’t he come back for the kids? Why would he just leave and not even say anything? We could’ve talked about it, we could’ve worked it out…unless..” Her swirled with thoughts, good and bad. She sat there staring off into space..Fran’s chest tightened. Her eyes drifted to the junk drawer—past the rubber bands, the takeout menus, the old hospital badge she hadn’t worn since the night everything went sideways. The night Tommy showed up at her job unannounced. The night security escorted someone out in handcuffs, and she signed paperwork she never read because she was eight months pregnant, swollen, exhausted, and just wanted to go home.
By Crystal Cane21 days ago in Psyche
Home Is Not a Place—It’s a Nervous System
I carry home in my shoulders. In the way they tighten when voices rise. In how my breath shortens before my mind can name the danger. Home, for me, has never been a place you could pin on a map. It has never been an address that stayed long enough to memorize the cracks in the walls. Home learned to move when I did. It adapted. It folded itself into muscle and memory, into reflexes I didn’t choose but inherited from moments that taught me how to survive. As a child, I thought home was where you returned at night. A door. A bed. A familiar ceiling. But even then, my body knew better. It knew that walls don’t promise safety. Silence doesn’t always mean peace. And love, when inconsistent, teaches vigilance faster than trust. So my nervous system became the house. It learned the language of footsteps. It memorized tone shifts. It developed an instinct for reading rooms before my eyes fully entered them. While others were taught to relax at home, my body learned to stay alert everywhere. This wasn’t anxiety at first. It was intelligence. It was adaptation. It was the quiet brilliance of a system that decided, without consulting me, that it would never be caught unprepared again. Modern identity doesn’t begin with who we are. It begins with what our nervous systems learned when no one was explaining things. Long before we chose values or careers or aesthetics, our bodies made decisions. About closeness. About conflict. About rest. Some people carry home in their chests — expansive, warm, forgiving. Others, like me, carry it in our shoulders, lifted slightly as if bracing for impact. Not dramatic enough to be noticed. Not relaxed enough to forget. This is what psychologists call regulation. Or dysregulation. Or trauma, depending on who is speaking and how clinical the room feels. But in lived reality, it’s simpler and more intimate than terminology allows. It’s the difference between entering a space and feeling your breath drop into your belly — or hovering somewhere near your throat, unsure. I used to think I was bad at settling down. Bad at belonging. Bad at staying. But the truth is more precise: my body never learned that staying was safe. So it learned movement instead. It learned how to pack quickly, emotionally. How not to leave fingerprints on relationships. How to be present without being exposed. It learned to treat even good moments as temporary — not out of pessimism, but out of habit. This is where modern psychology meets identity. Not in labels, but in patterns. In the way we mistake survival strategies for personality traits. We say we are “independent,” when really, we learned early that asking for help did not always end well. We say we are “low-maintenance,” when in truth, we learned not to need too much out loud. And somewhere along the way, we start believing these adaptations are who we are — not what happened to us. Home, then, becomes something we try to build externally. A relationship. A city. A routine. We move apartments hoping the next set of windows will finally teach our bodies to exhale. We curate spaces with plants and soft lighting, hoping comfort will arrive through design. Sometimes it does. Briefly. But the body remembers faster than the mind forgets. It remembers raised voices, even when none are present. It remembers abandonment, even in crowded rooms. It remembers inconsistency like a native language. And until it is taught something new — gently, repeatedly — it will continue to act as if danger is just around the corner. Healing, I’ve learned, is not about finding the right place to live. It’s about retraining the nervous system to believe that safety can exist without conditions. This is slow work. It looks like learning to unclench your jaw without being prompted. Like noticing when your shoulders rise — and choosing to lower them, even if nothing obvious is wrong. Like letting good moments stay good, instead of scanning them for exit signs. It is the quiet revolution of teaching your body that rest does not require permission. I am still learning this language. Still negotiating with a system that kept me alive when it had to, and doesn’t yet trust that it can stand down. I thank it now, instead of resenting it. I tell it we are no longer where we once were. I tell it, sometimes out loud, that this moment is safe. Home, I am discovering, is not a destination. It is a sensation. It is the moment your breath deepens without effort. The moment your shoulders drop without instruction. The moment your body stops asking, “What’s about to happen?” and starts saying, “I am here.” And maybe one day, I won’t have to carry home in my shoulders anymore. But until then, I hold them gently. Because they’ve been holding me for a very long time.
By Jhon smith22 days ago in Psyche
In This Dimly Lit Room Full of Emptiness
Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead. ― Charles Bukowski Nights are hard sometimes when my kids aren’t here. It’s not a loneliness, especially in the sense that I want someone here. Or want someone period. It’s a tiredness. I’m tired. Mentally and emotionally. Existentially.
By Jeff Barton22 days ago in Psyche
New Year's resolution for mental health
New Year's resolution for mental health As we stand at the threshold of a new year, it's natural to pause and reflect on the journey behind us while looking forward to the path ahead. The New Year holds a symbolic power, inviting us to reset and renew our outlook on life. It serves as a unique opportunity, a psychological landmark that inspires intentional change. While many focus on physical health or career goals, it's crucial to recognize that the foundation of all transformation lies in our mental health.
By Actual Bit23 days ago in Psyche
Why Your Body Begins to Shake During an Argument (And Exactly What It Means)
Have you noticed yourself shaking your hands during a fight or your voice quivering as you speak during a disagreement? It could be your whole body that feels as though it can’t stabilize as you disagree with someone over a certain issue or topic. Of course, this could make a person feel embarrassed or terrified when it happens – especially when the person affected has no idea what could be causing this issue. People would think it means the person is weak; this isn’t the truth at all.
By iftikhar Ahmad24 days ago in Psyche
