Forever Goodbye ED

Dear Ed,

This is going to be hard to say but i think its time we part ways. You have been by my side ever since grade school when my nickname was baby hippo and i am now 3 years out of high school. You have been to hell and back with me, but i cant have you be apart of me anymore. You have been noting but negative, a liar and a terrible "friend". everything you have told me throughout the past 9 years have been complete lies: "you're too fat you cant eat that", d0nt even think about laying down go out and exercise you need to lose weight", "you'll get fat if you have that piece of cheesecake". I know this isn't true, well now I do.

It took me forever to realize what my eating disorder was telling me were lies. I KNOW i wont get fat after eating one piece of cheesecake, i dont need to exercise every moment of every day and i definitely can eat whatever i want because it is NORMAL to eat. If you dont put gas in the tank your car wont go same with our bodies, if you dont fuel your body you wont have the energy to do things, and it took me forever to believe that.

Ed you are a mean person and you dont deserve to be apart of me anymore, i need to go and be free like a bird and not under your spell anymore. Ever since i got help its been easier for me to push you away, i had to separate myself from you because you were too negative for me. I learned i can live a life without having you around. Nothing about me is going to change without you. Nobody needs you around, im glad to say goodbye to you i will not miss you and dont ever come back into my life again.

Dear Ed,

You have taught me how to be a stronger person. you have taught me that i can beat anything and you have brought two wonderful counselors into my life. I now have a different outlook on life and i will forever be grateful for that.

Dear Ed,

You will not be missed.

Zoey

It took me forever to realize what my eating disorder was telling me were lies. I used this one technique that was taught to me in counseling and it helped a lot. Eating disorders can be beat! it takes a lot of time and effort but it is so worth it in the end. you CAN live a happy, guilt free life if you just keep holding on and climbing the mountain.

By,

Zoey Raffay