Angel Dream

2018 when I graduated from philosophy. Ever since I was a kid, I have tended to ask my parents profound questions; however, even they cannot satisfy nor give me a proper answer. All that they can say is: It is you who should find the answers as you grow up.

Growing up, I thought that my life was meaningless since I cannot find real happiness and answer my questions. I tried to understand life by answering questions by myself. But I feel nothing whenever, since it was not really heartfelt for me.

While I was walking down the street, I asked myself briefly: Why do people need to walk when there is convenient transportation? And all of a sudden, a voice came by like thunder. It is the voice of someone who would change me for the better.

“People need to walk because not all of them have their own cars nor can avail public transportation.”, a soft-spoken voice breezed through my left ear. Somehow, it felt familiar. I have known that voice throughout my entire life.

I swiftly turned to my left and saw the person smiling at me. The young delicate lady was glowing as the sun reflected on her skin. She resembles Renaissance sculptures, a course of beauty and astonishing sight to see. I was in deep awe and excitement when I looked into the lady's eyes. Is she the answer to all of my questions? I asked silently to myself. Her smile touched my heart, whilst I was staring at her deep brunette eyes.

I calmly asked her while we were in the middle of the sidewalk, “Why do people fall in line when they are already in a hurry?”

She sighed and responded. “Waiting is important even if people are in a rush. Patience is virtue.”

I asked another question, “Do people really need to wait?”

“Yes. Time is always running, and people value time more than anything.” she softly replied.

I abruptly looked up to the skies, then back to her while uttering, “Are you an angel that came down to fetch me?”

She slightly shook her head, laughing and said, “Haha, you’re so funny. I am Angel, but no I wasn’t really fetching you.” she paused briefly. “I am in love with you.” The angel then slowly grabbed my hand and held it. “And I will answer all of your questions, my love.” I saw a halo lightened above her head and wings sprang up behind her back. “Let us become one.” she continued without hesitation.

I never knew that someone would be able to answer me with such commitment and that person even proposed to me! My parents were right. I was the one who had found the answer to my questions. She gave meaning to my life. She became the very soul of my body, pumping blood through my veins. She exists because I exist, and I exist because of her. As I look deeply to her, I understand life more. Throughout these years, we have loved each other without doubting ourselves back. I had never valued life before she came. It really was fate for this lifetime to exist together. To be happy ever —

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock. I am now 42-years-old. Yet, I don’t have someone to be with nor someone interested in me. It was all an illusion, a trick to deal with my eternal loneliness. I will rot alone.