Why I Never Took the COVID Vaccine—

In 2020, I was the interim manager of a COVID testing center in Arizona. At the time, the air was thick with fear, compliance, and nonstop policy pivots. Most people were just trying to keep up. But I’ve worked in aDNA and DNA research since 2001, including forensic-level studies into cellular behavior, trauma, gene signaling, and long-range risk patterns. Way back in 1998, I worked on a prison system project with OSHA for college credit—and that’s where I learned how to read their chemical data sheets. So when the first vaccines were rushed through under emergency use, I didn’t line up. I paused. And I did what I’ve always done when something doesn’t sit right: deep research!

What I found didn’t sit right.

I debated on whether or not to put it out right away, so I waited. Finally, I couldn't hold myself back any longer, and published this in January 2021. In fact, you can still download some of my research on that link.

Now, in 2025, it still doesn't sit right.

Not because I saw a YouTube video or got spooked by headlines. I read the actual ingredients, looked into the delivery systems, the regulatory pathways, and the mechanisms of action—and I recognized the gap between what was being said publicly and what was quietly published in journals, patent filings, and biomedical archives.

Since then, others with far more visibility have said similar things. A federal court. A law professor who helped write the U.S. bio-weapons law. Florida’s public health system. What was once brushed off as fringe is now part of the legal and scientific record.

So if you're someone who's now questioning what happened—or still feeling pressured to answer for your choice either way—this article is for you.

The Ingredients List No One Was Supposed to Read

Let’s start with the part most people skipped: the ingredients.

In 2020, the guilt game was heavy. People weren’t just being asked to get the shot—they were being emotionally cornered into it. Compliance became a litmus test for morality. And when I told my son I wasn’t getting it, he begged me to reconsider. I told him “OK” just to shut down the pressure, but I had never intended to follow through. He wasn’t open to hearing what I had to say. I’ve spent my life doing forensic-level research, and suddenly none of that mattered. He didn’t want dialogue. He wanted a yes.

So I gave him silence instead. And then I did what most people didn’t bother to do...

I pulled ingredient data directly from PubMed, OSHA, the EPA, and the CDC’s own documentation. I wasn’t digging through memes or blog posts—I was reading the medical filings, the pharmacology disclosures, and the federal substance records. Pfizer, Moderna, Johnson & Johnson—these were the big three, all greenlit under emergency use authorization. You’d think the formulas would be clean, or at least defensible.

They weren’t.

Each formulation included substances flagged elsewhere in medical or toxicological databases as mutagenic, carcinogenic, endocrine-disruptive, neurotoxic, or capable of triggering anaphylaxis. These are not “woo” claims—they’re regulatory facts, based on peer-reviewed evaluations or chemical hazard warnings.

Some examples include:

• Polyethylene glycol (linked to severe allergic reactions)
• Polysorbate 80 (mutagenic and reproductive toxicity risk)
• Dimyristoyl-rac-glycerol (accumulates in the liver and spleen)
• Methoxy polyethylene glycol (shown in animals to cause vacuole buildup)
• Hydroxy-butyl and SM-102 (used in gene delivery systems with toxicity flags)

Also worth noting: these were injected, not ingested. Now, although my PhD is in ethics and not medicine, I’ve spent decades working in forensics and research. I understand how the body responds differently depending on the route of exposure. Ingesting a compound gives your system a chance to filter, buffer, and metabolize it through protective channels like the gut and liver. Injection bypasses all of that. It delivers substances straight into circulation, giving them immediate and often amplified access to sensitive tissues. And when the immune system is already compromised—as it is in people with autoimmune disorders—that delivery method can create disproportionate, and sometimes unpredictable, consequences.

Still think it’s just salt and sugar?

What Was Actually in the 2020 COVID Vaccines?

Here’s a full rundown of ingredients used across Pfizer, Moderna, and Johnson & Johnson’s initial vaccine formulas. These weren’t hidden, just mostly ignored. Each one listed below has a paper trail—flagged by regulatory agencies, published in toxicology journals, or disclosed in material safety data sheets.

• Nucleoside-modified mRNA – triggers immune response by reprogramming cells. Linked to clotting, inflammation, and extended tissue persistence.
• Glycoproteins – immune-altering proteins with connections to mucosal barriers and viral mimicry mechanisms.
• Ad26 Vector – genetically modified adenovirus (Johnson & Johnson) that alters cell function.
• Polyethylene glycol (PEG) – petroleum-based stabilizer, tied to life-threatening allergic reactions.
• Di-tetradecyl acetamide – used in explosives and lacquers, classified carcinogen with no safe dose.
• Dimyristoyl-rac-glycerol – bioaccumulates in organs.
• Methoxy polyethylene glycol – causes toxic buildup inside cells.
• Polysorbate 80 – linked to cancer risk, mutagenicity, and reproductive harm.
• Distearoyl-sn-glycerol-3-phosphocholine – suspected carcinogen, causes respiratory and liver damage.
• Cholesterol – common lipid but problematic for cardiovascular systems in vulnerable populations.
• Citric acid monohydrate – associated with seizures and cardiac irregularities.
• Hydroxy-butyl – tied to bladder cancer and tobacco derivatives.
• Azanediyl – found in propane mixtures, causes brain and respiratory damage.
• Hexane – neurotoxic solvent known to cause nerve injury.
• SM-102 – lipid used in gene therapy. Documented toxicity.
• Hydroxyethyl starch – linked to kidney failure and increased death risk in ICU patients.
• Ethanol (undecyloxy hexyl octanoate) – fetal toxin and nervous system irritant.
• Trisodium citrate dihydrate – can trigger seizures, cramps, and cardiac symptoms.
• Tromethamine (tris buffer) – causes injection site necrosis, liver damage, and collapsed veins.
• Sodium chloride – ordinary salt, but flagged as an allergen when injected in volume.
• Monobasic potassium phosphate – limited safety data, but acute toxicity noted.
• Hydrochloride – corrosive acid with severe tissue effects.
• Potassium chloride – used in lethal injection protocols.
• Acetic acid – corrosive irritant that can cause chemical burns.
• Sodium acetate – causes respiratory irritation and GI distress.
• Sodium phosphate dibasic – linked to rash, throat irritation, and wheezing.
• Sucrose – ironically the safest item on the list.

That was the injectable mix.

It wasn’t just saline and spike code.

The DNA Argument: It’s Not What They Claimed

Public messaging repeated one thing: “The vaccine doesn’t change your DNA.” It became gospel. But that’s not how genetic impact works.

mRNA vaccines deliver genetic instructions into cells. That’s their design. They may not rewrite base pairs like CRISPR, but they do hijack intracellular processes—triggering immune activity, protein folding, and transcription pathways. All of those affect cell behavior. And for some people, that cascade doesn’t shut off as smoothly as intended.

It’s not about sci-fi mutation. It’s about biological reality—and ignoring that distinction was either careless or deliberate.

Either way, it was wrong. I had immediately decided that I didn't want even one of these ingredients in my body let alone all of them!

A Law Professor Called It a Weapon—and Helped Write the Law

In 2023, Dr. Francis Boyle—who literally wrote the U.S. Biological Weapons Anti-Terrorism Act—filed an affidavit declaring that mRNA COVID vaccines meet the criteria for biological weapons under federal and Florida law.

The affidavit supported a legal petition to halt vaccine distribution in Florida. Boyle stated that:

• The vaccines deliver genetically engineered materials using nanotech delivery systems
• The emergency use approvals skipped safety and toxicity thresholds
• The mass rollout could violate multiple bio-weapons and public safety statutes

This wasn’t some guy with a microphone. This was the author of the law being invoked.

The Ninth Circuit Just Changed the Legal Definition of “Vaccine”

In a separate case, the Ninth Circuit Court ruled that the COVID-19 shots do not qualify as traditional vaccines. Their reasoning? They don’t prevent disease transmission—only reduce symptom severity.

The court revisited Jacobson v. Massachusetts (1905), which gave states the power to enforce vaccine mandates. But that ruling applied to preventive vaccines like smallpox—not symptom-control injections like these.

This ruling reshapes the legal basis for mandates. It raises new liability questions for governments, employers, and manufacturers. And it punches a hole in the narrative that said, “Get it for others.”

So Why Didn’t I Get It?

• Because I actually read what was in it.
• Because I already had an autoimmune disorder.
• Because no one—CDC, Pfizer, Fauci—was taking legal or medical responsibility for what might happen to people like me.
• Because “safe and effective” became a slogan, not a data point.
• Because when a federal court, a bio-weapons expert, and chemical safety data all say, “slow down and think,” I listen... and dive deep into research

Final Thoughts

This isn’t about telling anyone what to do with their body. If you got the shot, that was your decision. Rejecting the shot was mine.

Admittedly, I was falsely diagnosed with MS in 2018 due to bizarre physical symptoms that no one could fully explain. I was given every neurological test and scan available. And to this day, doctors still don’t know what’s going on. Because of that mystery, nearly every time the topic comes up, someone will ask—usually with a smirk or an edge of judgment—“So, did you get the vax?”

No. And for those who missed it the first time, here’s why:

I’ll say it again—not because I followed a rabbit hole, but because I followed the evidence. Because I’ve done forensic work for most of my life, and I know the difference between independent, critical thinking and polished messaging.

If you’re just now starting to question things, good. You don’t owe anyone blind trust. You owe yourself clarity.

Sources That Don’t Suck:

• PubMed – https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov
• OSHA Chemical Data – https://www.osha.gov/chemicaldata
• EPA Substance Sheets – https://www.epa.gov/assessing-and-managing-chemicals-under-tsca
• ScienceDirect – https://www.sciencedirect.com
• Harvard Medical School – https://hms.harvard.edu
• Mayo Clinic and UCCOM data sheets
• Francis Boyle affidavit (Florida filing, 2023)
• Ninth Circuit Court Ruling on COVID Vaccine Classification (2024)