Whole

Polarities
Dualities
Half in and half out
Split in two
Either..or

For many years I straddled the line
One foot in this world
One foot in the other
Often in judgment of the foot
That was over there
Or over here
Wavering back and forth
Standing on a teeter totter

Perpetually off-kilter

Never quite knowing
Which one was me

Until the day that I realized
That I am the observer
I am the one witnessing
I am the one embodying EVERY experience

No need to pick a team
No need to choose sides

I am complicated
I am messy
I am all of the parts of me combined
I am not just this,
Or just that

I am more than the sum of my parts
And I am more than the parts that take over when I am wounded

My power came
When I recognized
choice
When I realized that at any given moment
I get to decide
Which parts of me take center stage

I get to decide
What parts of me are
Needed
Effective
Essential
At any given moment

No longer fragmented
No longer confused
No longer overrun
By the parts of me that were screaming

I am the space in between
Watching my personal drama unfold
Curious and compassionate
Courageous and creative
Clear and calm
Connected and confident

I am whole

©️ 2021 Michelle Maree