things i tell the walls since i can no longer tell you

there are some things i must tell the walls now i can no longer tell you

i got an A in my last assignment

the dog down the road still barks every day at 11am

Did I tell you about how that dog once bit me when I met him on the street?

I forgot to eat yesterday

I want to go to the maldives this summer

Im not doing well

I can hardly sleep at night when i think about what you did

I lie awake and hope one day my bed wont feel so empty

I remember everything i did for you

I saw someone drop their food in mcdonalds and they looked like they were going to cry; i probably would have too

I still remember the first time of nearly everything with you

I can hardly breathe when i play back what you said

I found a lovely restaurant in the city that might be my new favourite

I still think about the food i cooked for you and how i didnt like it, but I cooked it because you loved it so much

I would not be in this state if i did not go out on that one night i met you

I joined a book club to fill my time and not have to think about you; it doesnt work but the people are nice to me there

I sometimes think of buying ice cream and then think about how you never really liked it and end up reaching for saltine crackers again even though they were your snack of choice, not mine

the bus driver let me ride for free today when i didnt have enough cash

I remember everything

Its your birthday in 52 days

I'll never have to think about what i want to buy as your present again

saw the ring i was going to buy for you reduced; its almost ironic now

I bought a new set of bowls and plates the other day

your favourite song is still at the top of my travelling playlist

I dont want to remember all these pieces of you

I dont want to walk past a person on the street and feel pain because they smell like you

I want to move away from here one day

I am tired of remembering everything.