The Beast

Clawing and pounding inside my chest

This beast never let's me rest

Easing the beast with broken promises

Hurting the beast becomes ominous

Growing to big for his cage

Overwhelmingly lost on your stage

No direction, no clarity; no place

No security, no warmth; no safe space

Given everything, all I had

In each moment my heart was glad

I love purely and only wanted that in return

Instead all I have is a question, what was I to learn?

My children all see me as weak willed

I gave all I could, I'm still paying the bills

To many nights alone to wrestle the beast

Each morning waiting for the Sun, looking east

Sending light and love to my inside

Showing the beast the beautiful light

Today is not the day to take our life

Today is not the day to focus on strife

Splitting my chest the beast quakes

Reaching in grabbing his scruffy nape

Pulling and writhing, crying from the pain

Scratching and biting, roaring like he's insane

Locked on to my spine and my rib cage

With one mighty yank, I'm starring at his face

I see you, you have right to be enraged

I love you for making me strong and a little crazed

You are free now, This is no jest

I'm hugging my chest

To heal the whole you left

Tomorrow morning a new day will begin

Setting you free will see me strengthened