i need to not
to not to need
to not to want
to not to please
i need to not
to not to stop
to not to cry
to not to breathe
i need to not
to not to dream
to not to care
to not to scream
i need to not
to not to give
to not to help
to not to love
i need to not
to not to flow
to not to show
to not to live
i need to not
to not to speak
to not to hear
to not to see
i need to not
to not to be
to not to be
to not to be
i need to not
to
to not
to not be
to not be me
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Caroline Jane
CJ lost the plot a long time ago. Now, she writes to explore where all paths lead, collecting crumbs of perspective as her pen travels. One day, she may have enough for a cake, which will, no doubt, be fruity.
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Day 4 of Quitting
If this is how sobriety feels, maybe it’s better to go through life a little buzzed… this, along with other hits like, I want to kill myself, I wish I was dead, and I’m going to throw myself off a bridge have been the only thoughts on rotation these past few days. I promise myself that if, in a month, I still feel like this (‘this’ meaning despondent, full of rage, and simultaneously numb) I can go back to smoking. Until mid-February though? Nicotine is off the table.
By sleepy drafts6 days ago in Longevity
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Felt this down to the tiniest nerve ending... Where would we be without writing? We connect and support each other in the spaces between the words. We are not alone.
powerful
Oh I was absolutely feeling like this, that’s why I was gone for a while, it is a horrible place to be. I don’t even know if I’m all the way okay yet, but I am back, I can’t stay away from such breathtaking talents, you and everyone else, for too long. I love how this piece was written, the finishing of thoughts, the undoing of them and the incompletion of some. It’s a great tongue exercise, but extremely profound when read slowly. I love this piece, it’s perfect in every way. 👌🏽👏🏽🙏🏽♥️
You very much need to be you. But this person very much needs a break. Are you ok?
Very powerful and vulnerable. Thanks for sharing, Caroline.
This was thought-provoking and powerful! 👏✨❤
Wow, Caroline! This was powerful. Incredible piece! 💓
Omgggg, this was soooo relatable! Loved it so much!
Hope you're ok. Sometimes it's good to purge. This definitely was a splatter!! But I absolutely disagree with it. <3 xxx You deserve the opposite always. Here on Messenger if you need to vent.
Wow, this is a poignant and powerful poem, well done!
It's exhausting, isn't it?
💜You're pretty wonderful as a human from where I'm spectating 💜c
This felt desperate whilst also being quite knowing. Literal nots tying you up in knots.