Sunflower Girl

I see you every day even though you are gone

There's nothing to do that helps me escape your presence

Across time and space thinking of you when I hear bird song

Your memory still controls my senses

Driving down a long and winding highway

Just radio noise beside me

I smile when I hear you singing along, the way you would on a Saturday

Our escapes and road trips remind me that it's alright to escape and just be

Driving down East Losey, I remember the first time I heard your voice

Something deep inside me stirred and I believed again the world was nice

Loving you was what I was afraid of, as if I ever had a choice

Addicted to you was something I shouldn't have been, you were my vice

Often I still think of you, and how you challenged my life

Hoping at the bottom of things to remember you

Missing that girl that was sharp as a knife

I could sit and listen to you all day, watching you smile, enough to do

Forgetting you would be smarter

It's not something I can do

I never wanted life to be harder

The hardest thing I ever have had to do, trying to get over you

Like sunflowers dipped in vanilla, even your scent still invades my mind

Hearing your innocent laughs as you played in the fields following second

The feeling of your touch so loving, a feeling that's now hard to find

It's why men retreat into their memories, or at least I reckon

Your lips so soft, like moistened silk on mine

In my heart, you were all that mattered

Even across such time and space, with you in my mind I'll always be fine

If born in a different time, my heart life would not have shattered

Yet, even so many years later, you live on in my memory

Your skin so soft, your eyes that twinkled, the angel sound of your voice

The smell of vanilla fields visiting in my dreams, our life now just sensory

I'd erase you if I could but my senses take away that choice