Ritalin

Apparently as a kid I got diagnosed with ADHD

I don’t know for certain, I wasn’t paying attention you see

I find it hard to concentrate 

On stuff that doesn’t hold much weight

It’s not that I’m unintelligent

More of a genius who finds a lot of stuff irrelevant

And boring.

I have infinite ideas

And for each of those ideas I have infinite fears

So I get trapped between my ears

Between reality and potential

One is stagnant, the other exponential 

But I can’t move.

I’m a master procrastinator

Serial tinder dater

If a job's worth doing

I’ll revisit it later

I start a lot of projects I'm never gonna finish

My enthusiasm for them starts to diminish

It’s a wonder I finished this poem at all

Thank you.

Ok so that was in jest

But there were two weeks between that last line and finishing the rest

I’m not exactly happy with it, it could be much better

But the irony of not finishing it was way too meta

Try Ritalin they said. A prescription med to declutter your head

They didn’t tell me I would not be able to go to bed

My whole body had a permanent erection

I spend four hours alphabetising someone else’s DVD collection

Robotically doing something pointless for someone I didn’t even know

It was like being back in my old corporate job whilst snorting loads of blow

Apparently taking meph to work or study is now the norm

Well then apparently Ritalin is capitalism in pill form

I confess I want success so I can impress and progress

My bedroom did get very tidy…

But wait - I digress

For what I gained in productivity I lost in creativity

I’d rather hold onto that and let the rest be a mess

If something requires too much effort, it’s probably not your jam

And so what if you lack the focus to pass a maths exam?

I bet nor could Ernest Hemingway 

We've got calculators anyway

The world needs creatives to un-fuck it a bit

The problem then is getting them to get the fuck on with it

Well, I’ve finally finished something and I feel proud of myself

Until I think about that half written book that’s not yet on my shelf.