Not Today

I woke up hurting today,

I’m still learning that’s okay.

I’ve cried tears that have burned my skin,

And thanked the salt for cleansing my sins.

I try not to complicate things with my racing thoughts,

But my ego can be downright mean and a bit distraught.

Being human means I’m made of both dark and light,

With my eyes closed, is how I gain my insight.

I can’t escape to my normal, lucid daydreaming,

With the corruption and madness lurking and creeping.

I cannot be all light and not face the shadows,

That doesn’t allow me to evolve and glow.

For the stars can only be seen at night,

The dark is needed to balance my light.

Old ways have died and this version of me is better than the last,

But I won’t pretend I don’t still have struggles and a past.

A past that likes to try to pull me under,

But, I now clap back with my own thunder.

I have the power to banish, clear and deflect all things,

That no longer serve me and cause me suffering.

I have moments of weakness, but I feel to heal,

I honor my emotions even if they make me kneel.

My feelings are valid, but they do not manage me,

I AM the Goddess that I never could quite see or be.

I AM a Mother and the 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒈 paired with the uncertainty,

Makes for a maze of a mind that tries to lead me to insanity.

I’m powerful now because I see and understand my strengths,

I don’t give my power away and I will keep making gains.

Not today demons, not ever again,

You don’t control me, you work for me, friends.