New Love

I have two feelings careening through my soul

the feeling of complete and utter joy, filling my

being without rules or requirements and

the feeling of standing at a wall that touches

the sky and knowing the source of that joy

lies impossibly on the other side

I would climb the wall for the rest of my life

just to hold that joy outside of myself,

but the reality of that joy is unknown

I could stand on this side forever and

let it course through me instead,

knowing it's the happiest I've ever been

Maybe the knowledge is enough

Maybe to hold that joy in my hands even for a moment

would be too great a loss,

or maybe it could be everything instead