Leave Me Alone, I Said To Myself

So, where have you been?

I’ve been waiting for you

A voice asks me - from inside my head

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I answered hesitantly

What are you doing here?

As I restlessly flail in my bed

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I thought I told you to leave me alone

My meds are meant to keep you away

The voice turns to laughter and then says to me, there is no way to keep me at bay

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What you don’t understand and refuse to admit

Your control becomes mine when you sleep

I, your subconscious - have a plan and agenda, and a limited time frame to keep

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So just lay back and relax - I’ll let you know when I’m done

Take a breath and relinquish your inhibitions

Don’t worry, you won’t remember - it’ll be fun

You should ignore any future premonitions

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When the moon comes and peeks in your window

The light shines on you - lost deep in dreams

Nothing is at all what it looks like

What you see isn’t always what it seems

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But you’re wrong, I said, I always remember

These dreams that I have when you come

They are vivid and I relive them for hours

They make me feel like I’m coming undone

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The next thing I know I am awakening

As the sun makes it’s way through the shade

Remembering every event of my nightmare

Reliving it - while wide awake