I Want To Be Me

Inside, here I am, this bubble I see from, so hard to feel from.

These two portals the only sense that is as good as when no separation I come from.

I long to feel, a touch, soft, but any will do, even pain would do some.

Hit me, kiss me, take me, love me, hate me, feel me, pay me, fuck me…Just let me feel me some.

Yes me too, I’ll help you, now I feel some, wait don’t leave me I’m only me now so sad one

Don’t worry I’ve got another one. I forgot how bad I felt from the other one, I just need to feel some, and the lonely without a feel is my great lonesome.

Now again inside the bubble I see from, tears I push out the portals, filling up it’s hard to breath from, the feelings now my demons.

Perhaps if I drank some, yes that’s it, now I’ll work some, yeah that’s it, now I’ll care for other ones, yeah that’s it, I can’t sleep some, too bad I’ll just drink some. Wish I could feel some I can’t get some so I’ll just give some.

I think I need help from…not the drink, not the ones but my one. Yes my one.

I can’t find the one so I’ll give some to anyone, I can’t find the one so I’ll drink and drown the great pain and lonesome.

Oh I’m remembering the feel, before the bubble, before the ones, before the barrier dulled my me son.

Above my head my fists I shake, on my knees my heart it breaks, down my cheeks my depression drains, and in my mouth I drink away the pain.

All my effort, all my work, all the moves to feel some and now mostly regret lines my brain and adds to a suffocating pain.

My God forgive me, my one forgive me, so sorry for my ways, so sorry for the pain. What’s that? I’m still trapped in the lonesome, what can I do? No choice, but to rush, be present with the spirit…. Son. longing for the look back, click bang and the Angels sung.

Just one step left but around my body the one embrace, to show me, inside me, the way for me, the key it is me and from the depths within my me I scream and break my hell, the words “I forgive me” was the way! Now in the arms of my one I use the lessons to walk back from.

I’m a better me now, no bubble to keep me from, no drink to dull my pain just my old friends, whom I’ve missed for so long Trust & Love and no more lonesome.