I am sorry...
Grandmother
I just saw you, and my heart broke in seconds.
Not being able to talk to me, to say those sweet and lovely words:
"How are you? How is your family? When are you coming? I am okay..."
Not recognizing meโit felt so strong.
An unexpected storm hit me with stones.
I was unable to react, just a pain in my stomach.
Guilty for not being able to come and see you...
See you one more time and hear you tell me everything is going to be okay...
I would hold your hand and tell you not to let go, but...
Shadows are there, dragging you into eternal darkness.
Maybe I will come. I donโt know.
I am scared, terrified to see you.
Not sure if I can handle it.
I've never been good with painโI just run away from it,
as much as I can, as far as I can.
Avoiding it seems easier.
Or maybe... I just donโt want to see you go.
Or remember you as you once wereโstrong, smiling...
Iโm sorry.
Iโm the kind of person who vanishes when things get tough and painful.
Iโm sorry for not being there.
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Ina Zeneli
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Comments (17)
What a fantastic poem you have emotions creating a deep poem, beautifully expressing love, guilt, and fear. You have written it to capture readers emotionally fallen to your poem. Good luck.
A poem that directly connects my soul with the deepest emotions hidden within. I wish that the pain for our loved ones transforms into love in their hearts and that they always forgive us. ๐
Heartwrentching!!!โค๏ธโค๏ธ๐
Really heartbreaking...!
Goodbyes are so Painful๐ชโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธโฃ๏ธ
Nice written keep it up
Wonderful heartfelt writing. I completely felt the same way when my Nana died.
Congrats ๐พ๐๐๐ on Top Story !
Oh my heart breaks for you, it breaks for her too. I understand that feeling, wanting to flee when the pain and fear gets too much. Wanting to see her the way she was, strong and smiling. The contradiction: wanting to be there, but not feeling strong enough, being pulled in two different directions. Wanting to say these words to her, wanting to say them somewhere, so that you could still go see herโฆ Beautiful, heartbreaking but beautiful. Congratulations on your Top Story Ina ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐๐ฝโฅ๏ธ๐ค
Your poem is raw and vulnerable, beautifully expressing the inner conflict and fear of facing pain.
This is awesome! I especially love <An unexpected storm hit me with stones.> Very cool! โก๐โก
Wow, this hit me. I really resonate with this. Trying so hard to be more present in these situations. This is beautiful, great job. Congrats on Top Story
And THAT is real! And no one teaches us...hands out tips/pointers. How do we attain mastery of those parts of us that can't handle it/can't function/drown? This poem brings up the right thoughts for reflection. Thank you for writing it. Congratulations on the top story recognition!
So, the voice in the poem runs away from pain and yet the irony is that it is present in every single line of this composition.
Congrats ๐พ๐๐๐ on top Story
Such a sad poem. My wife and I haven't seen our Granddaughter since August 2023. People with dementia are know to have brief periods of lucidness. Please go see your Grandmother, for no one knows exactly what they can feel and what they know. If nothing else you will feel better knowing you went.
so emotional and painful, Ina๐ซ