Haunted

Thump, thump, thump

The pounding in my chest

The air stills, as you grab my hand

I feel it coming, the words you’ll say

The lump in my throat, it won’t go away

Tunnel vision, my hands start to shake

The tears sliding down my face

“One of the best People I’ve ever met”

The words I hear you say

But there was something in your look that gave it away

I thought that this was it, the end of the beginnings

I thought you’d be the one who’d stay

Remember the first day?

The feel of your skin, electricity sweeping me away

The second week, laughing for hours as we lay

The first time you said you loved me, I remember it clear as day

The memories flood my vision, I can’t hear what you say

“Are you breaking up with me?”

The long pause, I can’t help but look away

The seconds feel like hours,

the world around us looks grey

I didn’t plan it like this - but I can’t ask you to wait, these words replay

I’m walking you to the door, the room beginning to sway

Each step feels like a mile

The sound of my heart - stay, stay, stay

The front door slamming, the sound of your car driving away

So much I didn't say, so much I needed to know. My heart shattered as I collapsed on the floor.

Questions filled the air – “What happened? Are you okay?” - the questions lingered, I couldn’t respond.

Two years later, I still feel the pain. You’re the only scar that’s refused to heal