First Time

Experiencing something for the first time is what I always look forward to

Keeps you thinking then fear creeps in but thrilled to feel and see it all through

Although this first time is different it's not what I've been expecting

This pain keeps me awake at night until I'm tired from overthinking

Then sleep kicks in

I feel worthless, like I was stepped on

Thrown to the ground, all the effort down the drain without appreciation

Your effort and existence weren't enough they always want more

I guess it's true "Greed is part of human nature"

I gave up everything just for you

Thinking it will be good for us two

A mistake I learned late and it was rough

If only I could turn things back and switch things around

I've had enough I had to let go

I know it will be hard but I have to grow

You as my priority, I thought was good but now I regret

It broke me inside out, shattered

I'll just walk away instead

Time will only heal the wounds you've left

Apology may work but there will always be "The Scar of Regret"

It's been great and I know we'll be blessed

I'll forgive everything but I will never forget