D. A. B. D. A.

D~ DENIAL

 Deep within your heart, the rhythm of your life's force is suspended

 Desperation giving way to a tragic sense of unbelief, of loss

 Happiness now but a fleeting wisp of forgotten yesterdays

 Trapped within one moment's space and untimely breath

 Eyes blinded to truth, reality and acceptance

 Seeing only illusions, unrealism and a pained desire

 For life as it was before your world fell forever apart

 You DENIED.

A~ ANGER

 Reaching up hands in supplication, soul weepingly agony wracked

 Your prayer unanswered, your every fiber of being is aroused

 To depths of vexation, annoyance and frustration

 For, what once was, will be no more within your fond embrace

 Time has shifted, your world now rearranged towards darkness

 You are ANGERED.

B~ BARGAINING

 Deep anguished and unanswered questions are propelled

 Projected into the vast empty spaces of the universe

 Why me? Why him? Why her? Why them? Why anything anymore?

 Please, let it not be so. I will do anything, give anything

 Just let it not be so. Make it like it was before

 I will alter time and tide, become better

 Be kinder, be sweeter, become more humble, be good

 If only there could be a reversal of that one single moment

 When unbearable loss, erased happy, leaving numbness

 Ensconced within an empty, cold and unfeeling shell!

 You BARGAINED.

D~ DEPRESSION

 You can no longer feel. Stillness is now the forte of the tired mind

 Movement hurts, so you lie still, curled within your inner self

 Sustenance is forgotten, hygiene no longer is tantamount to health

 Nothing matters anymore, you wait for the quiet of forever

 To wrap you within a cloak of fine silk and lay you down

 Into a sleep of forgetfulness, peace and contentment

 Where all is forgotten, and sweet sleep steals you away

 You are DEPRESSED!

A~ ACCEPTANCE

 You slept deep and long. Finally awakened by warm sunlight

 Gently caressing your cheeks, heralding the start of a new day

 As your hands reach for the prism within the newly born rays

 You experience the euphoria of a new beginning

 The cycle of life must go on, that never ending circle that is us

 Must needs be continued with each new breath that we take

 So you arise to meet the new day. The world now awaits

 What needs be done must be done, we go on

 You have achieved ACCEPTANCE!

 All shall be well!

P OEM

When Great Trees Fall

By Maya Angelou~ ~~~~~~~

When great trees fall,

rocks on distant hills shudder,

lions hunker down

in tall grasses,

and even elephants

lumber after safety.

When great trees fall

in forests,

small things recoil into silence,

their senses

eroded beyond fear.

When great souls die,

the air around us becomes

light, rare, sterile.

We breathe, briefly.

Our eyes, briefly,

see with

a hurtful clarity.

Our memory, suddenly sharpened,

examines,

gnaws on kind words

unsaid,

promised walks

never taken.

Great souls die and

our reality, bound to

them, takes leave of us.

Our souls,

dependent upon their

nurture,

now shrink, wizened.

Our minds, formed

and informed by their

radiance,

fall away.

We are not so much maddened

as reduced to the unutterable ignorance

of dark, cold

caves.

And when great souls die,

after a period, peace blooms,

slowly and always

irregularly. Spaces fill

with a kind of

soothing electric vibration.

Our senses, restored, never

to be the same, whisper to us.

They existed. They existed.

We can be. Be and be

better. For they existed.

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May they forever be songs sung within our hearts.

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N.A.