Alone Together

Laying on the cold side walk

Staring at a black sky

In distraught

Admiring the few stars that shine

I reach out

Holding my hand in front of my eyes

Hoping something or someone

Will grab ahold

And take me from this life

It doesn't have to be immediately

It can he gradually

I lay waiting

My arm still upright

Reaching to the sky

But it begins aching

And wavering

I stare at my hand shaking

Fingers trembling

Like I'm playing an imaginary piano

I'm not strong enough

My arm falls to my side

A gust of wind comes

Putting a blanket of goosebumps on my body

As it flows by

My soul

Feels so alone

The weight of it grows

Roots grow from the pit in my chest

And thorns wrap around my heart

Slowly piercing through as they get bigger

Making me suffer

I can feel my soul bleeding

The blood spreading

And I can't stop it

Soon I will be empty

The thorns will tear my chest to shreds

Leaving nothing

In the corner of my eye

I see a ball of fur

Its a cat

She's been watching me

Observing me from a distance

I sit up to look at her

And we just stare at each other

Her eyes alert and curious

Mine tired and longing

I reach out towards her

And slowly she creeps toward my hand

With caution, unsure if I'm safe or not

I hope she trusts me

Finally she reaches me, and sniffs my hand

I feel her nose tap one of my fingers

So I move my hand to try and touch her

But quickly she jumps back

I don't try again

I just let her be

Because I understand she's afraid

We just sit together

Distantly

As two lonely souls

I wish I could hold her in my arms

But I'm okay with her just being there

With me

Now every time I go outside

I hope she's there to meet me