Alone

So alone yet so surrounded.

I thought you were supposed to be there for me but now I’m left astounded.

Amazed. Shocked. Surprised at how easy it is for someone who you love can crush u so deep inside.

It’s like you wake up one day thinking you have it all but it was all a lie.

And you’re left there going about your day with a big, fat smile.

But on the if you look closely, that grass isn’t greener on the other side.

I thought you cared for me.

I thought you loved me unconditionally.

I thought you were going to be there for me wherever I may be.

I thought you would keep trying and trying for me, even when I acted differently.

I just wanted you to hold me close and ask me how my day was.

I just wanted you to show me that what we got is love.

I just wanted your shoulder to cry on when nobody else was around.

I just wanted you to treat me nicely when I was down.

I just wanted you to take me seriously, and not see me for a clown.

I just wanted you to lighten up my days and turn my frowns upside down.

I just wanted you to be there.

It’s like I thought I knew u but ur just someone else.

I don’t know how to explain it but it’s like

I’m trying to reach the surface and I’m calling out to you for help.

But you leave me there after you hear me yell.

Now I’m just left wondering...do I only got myself?

So I don’t got you?

So everything we had and we shared, it don’t mean a thing to you?

So you can just walk away from what we had so fast, and you’ll never look back, because I wasn’t worth it for you?

Like are you not feeling me because I’m feeling you?

And I don’t know what to do but to wait out here on my own until it’s dark and the only light shining is the moon.

What do I do? What do I do?

You were supposed to be my guidance.

And without you I feel off balance.

I look back at it now and when I see us I see a burning palace.

A palace so beautiful but yet so dark and lonely that I can

It’s like a love that was once there but now I can’t have it.

It’s like I’m walking around with weights on my body and I’m losing patience.

So I think I gotta take these chains off body to get some new balance.