A single little pill, it couldn’t
Be the answer to my prayers
Couldn’t contain all that I need to
Defeat the demons in my head
Evict them from my heart
Fight off the whispers and anxieties they
Give me on a daily, a minute-by-minute basis
Help me pull myself out of the doldrums
*
I cannot see how it can help me,
Just a single little pill, it couldn’t
Kick me out of bed or convince me to see the
Light as any brighter than the darkest cave
*
Maybe I should take one more, and another—
No! Never down that road I will go,
Only to regret it far too late
*
Pills, they are not for me
Quit them while I am ahead
Really, are they doing anything for me?
*
Still, I am not sure
Too afraid to go back now
Undo what progress might have been done
Very possible that it is doing something
Why take the risk after all this time
X out any progress that might have been made
You think I’m insane now but wait until I lose my
Zest for life
***
Author’s Note: I’m all right. I just wonder sometimes if my antidepressants are working as well as they should, and this was my way of working that out in a stream-of-consciousness kind of way.
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Standing While Falling
Quotation from Friedrich Nietzsche "He who wrestles long with monsters should beware lest he himself become a monster. And if you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also gazes into you. Man is not destroyed by suffering, but by the meaning he makes of it."
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So relieved to know that you're okay! I'm now on Pristiq and Seroquel, and I often wonder the same things as you. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
You too. I'm on Bupropion & Trintellix. Nothing else seemed to help much at all. I'm not sure how much good these are doing either. Blessings.
When I used to be on antidepressants/antianxiety meds, I thought these things, too. After having a Covid related blood clot, I had to get off them. I had a bad time at first, withdrawing. Now I'm doing fine. I think when I was younger and with more stressors I needed help...plus I was married...lol But I did say stressor.
Very glad for your reassuring subheading 😁
I always wondered similar and then I stopped taking them, and found out what they did do x Maybe doc could help with the dosage? Anyway, an elequent way to express your thoughts and very clevely done x You take care 🤍 I'm using banging about FB if you ever feel like a chat 🤍