Who Am I, Who I am

Who Am I, well I am many things! I work a full time job and am a Part time student. I love to talk about My feelings, and emotions as a big mental health advocate, so many of my stories and Chataters I create will center around myself, I love English and writing I needed a new coping mechanism or strategy and here I am, There are 4 Areas I’ll open up with in suicide and Mental health awareness month. The first is self harm, the second Being admitted for 2 suicide attempts, the third my story, and lastly my triumph.

Writing is a passion of mine, I took on to learn how to explain how I was feeling at first to help me communicate my deepest thoughts and to help me learn how, and what I was feeling. I struggle with depression, and Self harm, which has been a topic of discussion for many people to use to tell me their stories I used to be ashamed and now those scars are visible because I let them show to let people know they are not alone in this world, after losing My granddad July 31st 2020 I slipped down a dark path which it Took my cousin to bring me up out of that dark place and probably save me in more ways then I can count and at my worst when I was ready to take my own life, she called me and She could tell I wasn’t okay she asked what was wrong and told her what I was thinking she started crying to and said “you have a person here who would miss you so much and loves you.” I cried while we talked and After a month had gone by and us texting Those months I spent time working on myself little by little we texted the built me up I started making choices that would better me and my life such.

Self harm is a subject not many people can talk about comfortably and I’m here to break that stigma as well as many others, My Forarms facing my body are cover with scars of every battle I’ve lived through and surged showing I can make it through the toughest point of my life looking back I shouldn’t have been afraid to seek help and now I’ve conquered that fear and now have a therapist I talk with once every week. If I can do it so can you!

Why do I advocate for mental health? because I love being the voice for those who are to afraid to speak up who may struggle with many of the same things I did and still struggle with but haven’t haven’t found the courage to speak up on their own. I also love the whole subject and topic of mental health as I come to found out in the recent year Love and compassion are two things that matter a lot to me and I try to share those to things because in today’s world is hard to come by I love to be the light

Closing this story I will share details of my triumph, overcoming many things I struggle with although life is filled with many ups and downs I am now better equipped to cope and handle it, but many others still may be struggling and I hope this story resonates with many who still struggle with their own hardships. Currently I have over come my battle with self harm and depression and have found strength and happiness at the end of the tunnel. My cousin, and the support system I have built up now have help me to break a vicious cycle I thought I was stuck in. Through Family, Therapist, and a wonderful few friends, along with music and writing, many of my coming stories will have characters who resemble strength, though all odds, courage, and faith.