What Purpose of Life Is

I have been thinking about the ways I have changed over the years now and I have noticed a new habit of mine. Over the years I have been paying attention to things that I shouldn't be that much focused on.

If i had to describe myself, I would consider being observant to people around me. Be it movies, shows, or real life scenarios, I would like to think that there’s more than what meets the eye I suppose. It shouldn’t be my business but I couldn't help but wonder about how different they were from each other and how they were different from me.

When I would look at an individual that i was close to in real life, I would start to think about what makes them stand out from the rest of the people that I had met before. I pointed out their gifts and their flaws as well within my mind.I thought about how those qualities made them more human, I thought about how those qualities gave them a purpose in this world.

I begin to wonder about their relationships with others. A parent is capable of working two jobs for 40+ hours in a week just so they are capable of providing enough money to cover the necessary expenses and pay for their child. That innocent child has no concept of money and the work people put into it to gain that money, however, the child deep inside knows that they are taken care of and that the parent will always be there for them. This type of relationship creates dependency on each other and gives each person the purpose to live for another.

If you go on social media, you can immediately find at least one fan page of a popular singer. These fans sometimes purchase the singer’s merch, buy the concert tickets, promote their content and even make donations in their name because they genuinely care about supporting the artist. One would think “Why go so far for a person that you have never even met” or something like “Why do so much for a person who doesn't even know you personally” It all happens because those artists serve a purpose in someone else’s life, whether they realize it or not. Some people wake up just to see the person they look up to perform.

At first I thought this was just another way for me to overthink useless information because I had nothing else to think about. Sooner or later, I realized why I was consumed with the thought of knowing such details about everyone.

The reality is that if this one person happened to disappear nothing would change. The world would keep spinning as it is now and people would eventually see that it was just a temporary problem and life goes on. What s

Quite often I feel like that too. It’s not that I don’t have friends who cherish me and it's not that I don’t have family that appreciates my presence. It’s simply the fact that I feel so much distance from that I have gotten used to my own company. I started being by myself so much that lack of social interaction no longer bothers me and the only person’s company I enjoy is myself since no one else understands me better.