What day is it?

As 2020 comes to its end, I enter the new year with new hopes and goals for the future. I have decided not to dwell on what has passed, but to keep moving forward towards the unexpected.

While I move into the new year with this new outlook, 2020 has decided to follow.

With lockdown rules in effect, I decided to alter my weight loss goals. Since I couldn't go to the gym to see my personal trainer, I made the decision to do it remotely. My trainer became apart of my inner circle and thus, I was able to continue my active lifestyle and maintain a somewhat clear head as we try to pass through this mess. However, as we got further into the week, stricter rules kicked in.

I was no longer allowed to meet with my trainer. It became harder and harder to remain active. As days went on, my sleep started to become warped. I found myself up till dawn and passed out during the day. Everything started to merge into one big blur as my sense of time completely disappeared.

My plans to lose weight and stay healthy during the new year had begun to fall apart. First it was my trainer I lost. Then it was sleep. Then it was diet. I found myself stuffing my face with nothing but sugar and carbs. 2021 was turning into 2020 once again as I fell off the rail.

I don't have my trainer here with me to guide me through this all, but I also know that I am not alone in this mess. People everywhere are going stir crazy as they are confined to their homes. And even though the struggle is real, we are all in this together. This is where I realize that I needed to pull myself out and work even harder to better myself as a person.

It isn't much, but before the final lockdown was put into place, I had managed to find myself a couple fitness video games for my switch. I really am not someone who enjoys exercise (hence the personal trainer) but I do enjoy a good video game. Though it will never replace the gym experience, it is a step in the right direction.

At 10:00am every morning, if I am not awake, the game will alert me. The remote will go off, vibrating ever few seconds and causing a loud thud on the table it rests on until I get my lazy butt out of bed and turn the system on.

Even though my sleep schedule is still off, I at least have taken a step in the right direction. I have my set time now to get up and force myself every day to be active. It's not my ideal way of entering 2021, but the year is still looking better in comparison to last year.