This is where the biggest pain lies.

Yes, this pain is truly inexplicable—a feeling gathers deep in the chest, wanting to become a word, but it stops when it reaches the lips. It is not said, it cannot be said. Then it gathers, becomes heavy, burns, and eventually creates such a pressure in the chest that even breathing seems difficult. Many do not understand this feeling, because it cannot be seen, cannot be heard, it can only be felt—silently, alone.

If one does not have enough courage, time, or opportunity to express something, then that thing is no longer just a thing—it becomes a curse, a suppressed fire that burns a little more every day. People think, “I should have said a little more,” “I would have said a little more,” “If only he had understood!”—life gets stuck in these “ifs.” You walk around wearing a mask of normality, smile, talk, work, but a scream gathers in your chest, the sound of which only echoes in your heart.

Hidden within this cry are many sacred feelings like love, waiting, forgiveness, or gratitude—which, if not said in time, can wipe out much potential happiness. If a word, “I love you,” or “I am hurt,” or “You are important to me”—remains unspoken, its immense pain disrupts our daily mental focus and changes the normal pace of life.

And there is only one problem with this unspokenness—the more you try to suppress it, the deeper it consumes you. In the light of day, you may be able to handle everything, not get caught up with anyone, but when you are alone at night, those words stand by like a shadow. They bring tears to your eyes, make your breathing heavy, and rob you of sleep. You may think over and over again, “Everything is fine,” but the inner voice says, “No, nothing is fine, something had to be said, but was not said.”

This feeling can also be understood as a kind of failure. Because it seems that if it could ever be said, if that person had understood even a little—then life could have been different. Those thoughts drift away somewhere—some unknown place, where only memories and imaginations crowd. You talk to yourself, you write letters in your imagination, close your eyes and see some scenes—where you said the right thing, he listened, and you laughed together. But when you open your eyes, you understand—that world of yours was only yours.

And here is the greatest pain—you know you felt the right thing, but it never reached anyone. Maybe no one understood, or you didn’t dare to say it. The feeling of being in this state of ‘not saying’ is a kind of sigh—which never ends. You want to breathe deeply, but your chest feels tight—it is not only mental, but sometimes physical as well. Your chest becomes heavy, your heartbeat becomes erratic, tears come to your eyes—even you can’t control yourself at all.

Yet there is some strange beauty in this pain of not saying it. Unexpressed feelings make us the most sensitive people. We understand the pain of others by looking into their eyes, because we too are burned by that pain. Those who feel, but cannot say it—a special tenderness grows inside them. Even though they appear tough in front of everyone, they are completely soft deep down.

However, it is also true that these suppressed feelings ruin a lot in the long run. So sometimes it is better to dare. Whether to say it or not, to explain it or not—a lot of love is lost in the middle of these dilemmas. And life never stops, when time passes, nothing can be said the same way as before. No one waits anymore.

However, if there is no other way to say it, if that person is lost, or if he never comes back—then at least say those words to yourself. Write them down, say them while looking at the sky, or cry silently. That freedom may make you a little lighter. Because feelings cannot be kept in your chest forever. It has to be expressed in some way or the other—or it will destroy you silently.

The feelings that you have not yet expressed have their own glory. But forgetting yourself, losing your breath, and carrying that burden is not heroism. Free yourself from the burden of feelings, be transparent to yourself, respect your feelings. Maybe no one else will understand, but you will—your heart is the greatest listener, the deepest friend.

So, do not be swept away by this pain. Rather, be the person who makes your feelings true—even if you do not say it, keep it clear within yourself. Because someday, in some form or another, the echo of these feelings will return—and then you will understand that those unspoken words also had a consequence.