The truth of a crazy woman, in a world full of normal people.

You just got to do you....No matter how long it takes.. 🦋

If they aint helping you succeed in that particular goal you set for yourself, then i suggest you find more time for you.

Its okay to back off!

No one owes you anything 🔑

But most importantly you don't owe anyone anything as well.

Nothing that was received in your life, from anyone whether it may be 5 dollars or may be 1000 dollars.

God blesses people through others.. While some may throw it in your face and some may not. You just have to learn who for you. Its pretty simple. It may take awhile. But then you'll figure it out.

When around certain friends, family, or even co-workers that are most times not so positive, only you have the power to tell yourself that you are better.

Better than whatever it is that’s thrown at YOU.

Through my journey in this life so far, ive come to realize a lot. Though i may have not mastered it all or even understand whats to come for us all as people.

I still feel like we get distracted when we are constantly waiting for an approval of the next person. Even me.

I have to have my mom approval in everything i do. Which is weird cause im so much older now....

I'm learning to grow as i get older.. Learning to fight my own battles without any source of help.

Im learning how to have a filter

How not to offend others..

But I’m also learning "how to not give a flying ....."

I hate lies, i hate living lies..

I want to be happy, i want to wake up everyday knowing that.. My mom loves me no matter what decisions i have made and decisions I will make.

Thats me..

Not easy, because struggles come daily, but i know for sure that one thing i have mastered is loyalty.

I took care of mines.. And i would do it all over again.. With no hesitation nor regret

Looking back at my little life.. Just at 26.. I can say.. I've been through some fucked up shit.. Some shit that even i don't want to talk about..

Anyways they call me crazy!!! And for a moment there I almost believed it!!!!

I started love being called crazy.. Because i feel like.. Well okay. Call me crazy because i speak differently, i dont think that should even be a thing.. But any who thanks to whoever started that trend.

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Call me crazy for leaving my mother house and coming to the U.S. wanting to better myself and my family.

Call me crazy for quitting the best job i ever had because i felt like i was being taken advantage of.

Call me crazy for cursing out people because i think thats the only way to get the attention of others. From where I’m from!

Call me crazy for thinking i was not marrying a man who cheated on me.

Call me crazy for wanting my family to really be a family

Call me crazy for hating my dad because he molested me.

Call me crazy for being honest

Call me crazy for not wanting to sell myself

Call me crazy for not allowing myself to be in such a predicament that would land me in jail or in prison

Call me crazy for standing up for myself 11000 times.

Call me crazy for speaking my mind, when no one else didn’t

Call me crazy for cursing my sister and my siblings or cousins out when they aint doing right.

Call me crazy for asking for help, at 20!

Call me crazy for asking for help at 21!

Call me crazy for asking for help at 22

Call me crazy for saying its too much at 23

Call me crazy for saying at 24 i was lost. I needed my family.

Call me crazy saying that at 25 i wanted answers.

Call me crazy for saying at 26 i grew from it" and accepted it ALL!!

Call me crazy for not wanting to be apart of your lame ass club or whatever its y'all doing these days.

Call me crazy for wanting others to take accountability for their actions

Call me crazy because i cry easily.

Call me crazy for being me.

Call me crazy for wanting better for myself

Call me crazy for breaking up with you.. Because i felt like my peace was disturbed once i met you.

Call me crazy for not wanting to leave you BECAUSE YOU WAS THERE FOR ME WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS.

Im not someone who buys the top brands or get my nails or hair done. I dont think I'll ever be that someone.

I love my flat cut, so much to the point, that I've been cutting my own hair for years.

My point is.... Don't worry about the things you can't control. Spend your time on the people and things you do have control over.

Ps:

“I write sometimes” 🖊