The reasons we all suck

For the whole my life I thought I will be different, extraordinary.... I have so many thoughts in my head and now, when I'm 25 yo I want to laugh.

I am exactly as much extraordinary as everyone else, maybe just a little bit more lazy. And hell yeah procrastination loves me, but that's not a mutual feeling. If I could break up with someone, I would totally ruin that relationship.

The other funny thins is, everyone feels exactly same way. I have meet so many people in my life... Like honestly so much, you definitely know those best friends forever, when friendship lasted not more then a weekend or one trip. People are pretty similar, I mean that we all attract people similar to use, this is how we create our environment.

There was a moment when I was really thinking that I am different, that people around me don't understand the world the same way as I do. But this doesn't mean that I am different or they are. It's only mean that it wasn't my circle.

But yeah... What was I saying? Oh yeah we all suck, that's true and let's embrace it. We are saying something, promising and then nothing happen. Most of us are in this thinker category, but oh God, we all believe we are doers. Honestly, we just like to talk a lot and brag about so many thing we want to do, but we never do, because just don't.

Like myself... I'm sitting here starting my 122375292 project and with the eyes of my imagination I see myself financially free on a never ending holiday. I won't work again, I will never ever have a boss again and my whole life will be a f**king dream. You will see!! But ever single time I start something amazing, after couple of days or in the best scenario after couple of weeks I give up. Why? Because I'm lazy and when I started my "project" I was so hyped I didn't really think and after some time I usually realise that I'm in the deep shit so I quite. But hey! I won't tell you any of that, I will find the most reasonable excuse and I will share that with you!

But you will be a liar if you tell me, you are not the same. Okay okay, I will admit it, there's couple of people who put all the heart into something and bang bang they are amazing and highly successful in whatever they do. Good for them, I will go and cry myself to sleep, because I like to talk and I like to imagine, but also I like to sleep and watch Netflix.

"You didn't find something what you love!" - you will say. Well, that's a bullshit, because people don't like to struggle and learn, people like to know, like wake up and have all the knowledge, that's it.