The Idea Of Traveling Alone Excites and Terrifies Me

There's nothing on this planet that gets me more physically excited than the idea of travelling to new places, trying new foods, experiencing new cultures, seeing the sights and architecture of a different country.

Actually travelling though… terrifying.

I can’t even leave my house by myself, let's just be honest, it's something that I’ve been working on for a while now and I can survive short jaunts to the shops alone but that’s about it.

Yet I feel like every holiday I have been on with other people has caused me to go alone with more of what the other people want to do rather than what I want to do.

My dream holiday is a month-long trip to Korea and Japan, about two weeks in each place. I want to do one of those gorgeous full tour trips where you don't stay in one place.

I want to see EVERYTHING. I want to eat EVERYTHING. I want to do EVERYTHING.

When I was 14 in highschool, I had the opportunity to go on a school trip to China for ten days and 11 nights. Best holiday I’ve ever been on. We visited Beijing, Xi’an, Shanghai and a few rural villages that I can’t remember the names of. We were on the Great Wall of China, we visited Pandas, saw the terracotta warriors, spent a few days with children in an orphanage and had so many delicious meals that can’t be recreated quite the same in the Scottish takeaway shops.

It was truly an amazing time of my life and I spent months learning about Chinese culture before we went and on the actual trip, the tour guides were some of the most amazing people you can imagine.

In 2025 I am going on a two week long cruise with my mother and my aunty, I am so excited to travel with my mother again. The last holiday we went on together when I was an adult was in 2019 and on this cruise we are getting to revisit the part of Spain we visited all those years ago. It’ll be my first holiday with my aunty as well and I can’t even put into words how excited I am for that.

I want to spend some of the time with myself just to see how I get along. I've been practising my rusty Spanish in preparation with the help of one of the customers in my work. Need to get back on Spanish Duolingo… if I can tear myself away from my Japanese and Korean lessons for two minutes, it’ll be a challenge.

The time on the ship will be phenomenal as long as I don’t think about the fact the deep, blue sea is just under my feet (my biggest fear is the sea).

I’ve decided that with the new year my only resolution is to be more comfortable going outside, I love being alone in my house and whatnot but outside has so many more possibilities.

The last two holidays I’ve been on haven’t included a swimming pool, please for the love of all things good let the big ship with everything have a swimming pool on it. I don’t ask for much, I really don’t.

I’ve been saving up a little every month for nearly a year now for this dream holiday. As soon as the cruise is over I will be putting more and more effort into saving up for it quicker because every single day I wake up I yearn for my dream holiday more and more.

I’ve been planning it for years now but my savings haven't done anything to prove that I want to go so in 2025 I will also make the effort to change that.

I wish you all an amazing New Year and let’s all get closer to our own dream holidays!