Stup!d G!rls

Growing up I didn’t feel like myself. I felt these unrealistic expectations to be someone I wasn’t. I had to be white. I hated my curly hair because when it was curly it was too short and I felt ugly because my ears stuck out. I had all these emotions about not wanting to be who I was. Because of the world we all live in. I felt like I had to be white in order to get ahead in life, and that’s the truth. It’s been the truth forever. Growing up I dressed goth, and at times I felt like I couldn’t be dressing this way... only white people dress this way. So even though I felt like myself dressing in all black wearing chains and dark circles around my eyes. At the same time I felt out of place. Everywhere I went I got stares and it made me feel like they were starring at me because I wasn’t white and I shouldn’t be dressing this way. What made it even worse was school. People always asking me why I dress like that, asking me do I worship the devil. A lot of people are so small minded. Because I didn’t worship the devil at all, I was a believer in extra terrestrials. I swear I am so tired of the world being so small minded. There are so many unbelievable things in this world and the only thing people want to worry about is money, electronics, clothes and sex. Worrying about wether you have more and look better than the person you stand next to. Growing up my mother dressed me in pink, I had Barbie dolls and baby dolls, I was spoiled. And that was part of the problem. I thought I had to look like those Barbie dolls, I wanted too. But it wasn’t me. Barbie dolls give young girls these unrealistic expectations that this is what they should look like. And with the majority of Barbie dolls being white it made young girls who weren’t white feel like they should be. You have to be light, you have to have strainght hair, you can’t eat, you have to be boney, you have to put on makeup, you have to dress this way and look this way. This is not the message you should be sending. We should be teaching young girls to be strong, and independent. We were not born just to have babies and clean up after our husbands and children. We should be teaching them that they can do whatever they want, be whatever they want. Now I’m not saying that all parents do this. Some parents have a brain to teach their girls that they can be strong. Put down the makeup and pick up a football. Put down the phones and pick up a book. Tell them I want you to be more. I want you to be intelligent, strong, independent, caring. To be your best self. Now that I am older, and having more knowledge about all these things... I love myself, I love my curls, and I know that my style does not belong to just one race. I can be who I am with confidence. I can listen to my rock music and ignore the voices of people telling me I shouldn’t be listening to that because it’s the devils music. It’s not that I ever wanted to be white, because I didn’t... I just wanted to be who I was without feeling like I had to be white in order to have the confidence to be who I am because I felt like that’s what the world wanted me to be. You can be whoever you want to be and don’t let anyone tell you different or put you down because once you do, you have given them power over you and that’s when they can do whatever they want to you. Stay strong.